Is this how it feels?
I've been down this path before...
No. I am no fool.
But for G-d's sake ... one needs to pretend to be dumb sometimes.
I did my part and I feel proud of myself and good with G-d.
Behold, G-d is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the L-RD YAWEH is my strength and my song; He also is become my salvation. Therefore with joy shall ye draw water out of the wells of salvation.
Isaiah 12:2-3