Loom Knitting and Fruity Tea Time

Ahhh... I hadn't been this relaxed in ages.

A bit of knitting, some tea, a bit of editing... yes.
My life is officially back to a really cozy and happy normal. :) 

The kids agree. 

We also did groceries and we couldn't stay away from the cheese! LOL! 

We've had brie, fettuccine alfredo, Olive Garden style mushrooms with lots of romano and mozzarella, lasagna... I mean... for a  year we felt so restricted because of a certain's person so called aversion. 

Just because I don't like something, I shouldn't  keep others from it. 

In love we abstained in order to keep him from gagging or eating his meals in a separate room. 

This past week we ate cheesy foods almost every day! LOL

Yeah.
We're good and it's only going to get better with G-d's amazing help. 

:)

2 Nights for Israel

Claudia with the amazing Israel Cohen during the "2 Nights for Israel" event!
We were so incredibly blessed!
Totally preparing for our trip!

Like Israel Cohen said last night, "Making aliyah is not optional. It's an OBLIGATION!"

2 Nights for Israel Tomorrow!

I can't wait.

I am going to meet some really special people like Israel Cohen and Batya Ruth Wooten! :)
I'll be doing the panel's photos tomorrow.

Wow.
Claudia, Ricardo and I are on our way...

So happy.

Rejection is G-d's protection.

Yup.
It's a new start.
Brand new.

:)

Thank YOU Heavenly Abba

Well... it is October 17, 2012 and I am back on track!
YES!
Thank you Heavenly Abba!

Individual bank account... check!

Individual car insurance... check!

An amazing support group packed with strong believers via Abba Worldwide Ministries... check!

A purpose once more... check!

Had an amazing time with the leaders of Abba Worldwide Ministries last night. We worked to achieve some goals towards the coming events and the meeting was quite productive.

Very happy with the outcome.
Very grateful for their love and support.

Thank YOU HaShem for literally sending them my way when I needed them most.

Thank You Abba!

I love YOU!

Just Saying...

Right now I'm homeschooling while trying to prepare some image drafts for the "Two Nights for Israel" event and my mind is slowly gathering ideas.
It will be a busy day and a busy evening for me, but that is good. Someone is picking me up this afternoon and although they offered for me to spend the night at their house, I'm still thinking about it. If it's an inconvenience for that person to drive me home late at night then I guess I'll stay, but it's just really uncomfortable for me. 

I'm also preparing to interview with a videographer who is in need of a photographer for his wedding events.
Let's see how that goes.

Ricardo took his English Unit test and got a 92%. Super happy for him.
Claudia is struggling with her math but is actually getting really good grades.

Although I've allowed a bit of anger to get to me about things I am having difficulty recovering from, I know that this too shall pass. It's not easy to start over. Being a single mommy always makes things a bit more difficult,so if you are out there reading this and are considering joining accounts and insurance with a brand new spouse... DON'T DO IT!

If the relationship ends they will walk out of your life like nothing ever happened and you will be left with NOTHING except what's in your pockets. What was once yours from years of hard work prior to getting married... gone for good.

Is it getting better?
It will eventually.

Then there will be the very mean hearted people who will dare say, "I knew it. See? I knew that was going to happen!"
There will also be the EVIL gossip mongers who will make phone calls to even worst gossip mongers who claim to love G-d and be true Christians (but who in reality are nothing other than "churchians") and will spread the word of my misfortune and claim it as an act of G-d for being unequally yoked to a man of a different faith.

Well, to all the gossip mongers who secretly delight in the misfortunes of others instead of praying for them, I have this to say...

If Yeshua were here in flesh and blood... He would surely come to my house and give me the biggest hug and tell me that everything will be ok. He would also hug my kids and overflow my home with reminders of all His promises for us.

Since you are not like Him  (Yeshua) AT ALL... consider yourself as LIMITED as your lack of love for others and as your lack of integrity for all things spiritual. I assure you that G-d knows this truth about you regardless of how hard you try to hide it so that others can't see it. Keep telling yourself that you are soooo good and so honorable.
Yeah.
Keep telling yourself that.

Sincerely,
Rose

Time Travel

Does it exist?
Yes.
Albert Einstein was close to "re-discovering" this old and ancient truth.

It's not anti-biblical at all.
You see... in order to predict the future you have to be able to see it first.
The Bible is packed with prophecies that have already come to pass.
In G-d (our Prime Creator) there is no time and space.

2 Peter 3:8
But beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the l-rd as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.

Do I believe in the plurality of worlds? Yes.
In order for time travel to be possible, you need to understand how the concept of a parallel universe works.
A bit of physics, shall we?

Hang on... my son needs help with his English class.
BRB.

OK. So where were we? Ahhh yes. Parallel universes. Yes... I said that in plural because there is more than one. Science has known that for quite some time now. Even our forefathers believed in it. That's a whole other thing there... but I'm not talking aliens here.
There are no aliens. We're the aliens. LOL
What does exist are "multi dimensional beings" or as some of us prefer to call them "extra dimensional beings."

Do we have a multi dimensional G-d? Yes. He is multi dimensional but so are we. The humans of the here and now do not understand this concept because they have been deprived of it for some time now. That part of how we were originally designed is in hiatus, for lack of a better term. Hence the story of Adam and Eve... blah blah blah... no longer in the garden of Eden... blah blah blah.
The point is that we are only allowed to "perceive" up to the third dimension. Only animals and babies perceive up to the fourth. There are 11 dimensions in total. Can you get your head around that?
I didn't think so.

For those of you still confused about how dimensions work... here is a great video I found on YouTube.

Part 1 of 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JkxieS-6WuA

Part 2 of 2

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=fvwp&NR=1&v=ySBaYMESb8o

I know that this only explains up to the 10th... but there's 11 in total. Trust me.

So here is the bottom line. There are other "realities" or "dimensions" that co-exist parallel to our own and what people think are aliens are just beings from those other dimensions.
Some people call them angels and some call them demons and in many cases it's neither of those. Just people like you and me who have the technology to travel from one dimension to the other in order to warn us about or alter our existing reality.

Still with me?
Hmmm... need a bit of help?

Ok.
Imagine that you walk into a gym. There are mirrors everywhere. When you look to one side you see the reflection of yourself, but since there is a mirror on the opposite side of the room you see an image inside that image, inside another image... all the way into infinity.
Well... there is your visual on parallel universes. Time travel is nothing but a step forward or a step back into one of those.... give or take a 1 to 2 percent divergence.
The farther into the past or the future you travel, the larger the divergence is.

Am I crazy.
No.
You all are for allowing yourselves the hypnotic slavery of what you know as media.
You are slaves to it. You are entertained and so incredibly distracted that you fail to connect with the true source of your existence...
G-d.

He tries to speak to us all the time. He tries to warn us of things to come. He tries to connect but we are so disconnected from Him and connected to everything else that we no longer have the ability to tune into our own Creator.

Why the book of Enoch did not make it into the Bible is beyond me.
All I can say is that perhaps if it had been included it would've gotten people to think a lot more about our TRUE origins. Anyways... Hollywood is packed with "travelers" who have attempted unsuccessfully to remind humanity about something they lost a long time ago.

Not everything that is labeled as Science Fiction in Hollywood is fiction at all.

Lunch time. Will explain the simplicity of time travel a bit later.
Hint...
Do you know that we can actually create a black hole? That there is a curvature in black holes that prevents a human being from being torn apart by its gravitational force?
Did you know that science in the here and now has already discovered this?
LOL

You didn't know because you are way too entertained to know.

Are you aware that the reason they just had someone skydive from the edge of space to test a "suit" is REALLY because the closest they can get to the g force of a black hole is the stratosphere?
Are you paying attention now?

Good. About time. TTYL.

Silence

If I could just tell people out there... shhhhhh... a bit of silence so that I can truly appreciate who you really are and not who you say you are.

Yeah.

Being married meant the most precious yet simple things to me...

It meant carrying the title of Mrs. instead of Ms.

It meant that my kids had someone to call "dad'. Something they had never experienced before.

So many new things I hadn't experienced before either.

Then in comes that cruel letter from that stupid woman who hates me for no reason at all.

In it she tells me how I've been shortchanged and that's what happens to single moms. That women who bow down to a man (meaning Jesus) are in idolatry and should never attempt marriage with a true Jewish man.
How she knew he would walk out because we didn't believe the same and "who the heck would want to stick around a woman who limps" and can't stand straight to walk anyways.

Yeah.
I wish I had her in front of me to throw it right back at her. HARD.
Then again, who cares?

That is all I keep hearing in my head.
Who cares that this hurts so much? Who cares?
It's as though I am being forced to get over it FAST because crying and feeling depressed is SELFISH and life goes on.

SHUT UP!

I want silence.
I want silence and I want it now.

My faith is solid.
I believe in Yeshua.
That's his name.

I may not be married anymore and I WILL NEVER again go there... heck no. WAITED YEARS to open my heart to someone and this pain was SO NOT worth it.

So now that you have "rejoiced" with my pain. Leave me alone and go to hell.

Really.
I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
Because I am not perfect.
I am real.
I am not a fake.
I am real.
Real people have the right to say it like they feel it once in a while.

Thank you.

Virmana

They discovered a virmana in Afghanistan.
I knew they had existed.
I have seen them hundreds of times in my mind.

I know exactly what they look like and how they work.
I could redesign one from start to finish because I remember how.

Yeah.
Odd girl out. I know.
The story of my life.

In the here and today I am just  (once more) a single mom.
Love being a mommy.
Wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

People have no idea how much more technological this earth once was. That people could literally fly with a simple thought.
That airplanes existed wayyyy before the Wright brothers.
That space travel was so incredibly simple.

This civilization is nothing but a weak replica of one that existed more than 20,000 years ago.

To Do List

Today my goals are to:

Clean this room and make it look like new.
Do laundry. ALL of it.

Buy ink for the printer. MUST buy ink for the printer. Ricardo and Claudia have an intense array of paperwork to send out.

Homeschool the kiddos.

Go to the gym. :)

Lunch?
Chicken sandwiches.

Dinner?
A salad for me. Tuna casserole for the kids.

Yup. I am on my way. :)

It's Wednesday but I have no idea what church group I'll be attending. Must call to find out.

Starting Over

I was thinking of starting a new journal. One without the old pictures in it.
Then I thought... no. I'll continue my life on this one because for a year there I did not blog. Everything in my life stopped. It's as if I had ceased to exist so that a new thing would emerge... and that sort of did not happen either.
Happiness was there, but the entire package... the one that usually follows G-d's perfect will, wasn't there. I did my own will and did not wait for whatever else G-d might have had in mind.

I think that what He had in mind was for me to remain alone, all along.

I had waited more than ten years to open my heart to someone but things did not work out.
We were simply not believing the same.
We did not speak the same language when it came to G-d.

I know where my faith stands and it is in Yeshua HaMaschiach.
My soon to be ex husband does not believe like me.

So with a heavy heart I have to walk away from it all... not that I walked away first. He did.
When I say "walk away" it simply means to let it go.

Tonight is especially hard.
Before I started writing on here again I ended up reading my past on these same pages.
It hurt.
Yeah.
As I went "back in time" though, I realized how happy I truly was before all this. How truly happy and in love with my Savior I was more than a year ago.

Then I saw it.
I took a wrong turn somewhere.
Didn't wait.
I'm back again, you know... except that now I'm hurt and my kids are hurt so fixing is desperately needed.
We've come back shattered and although each day gets better, I would've done anything to keep my kids from the tears that followed this very sad ending.

Time to start over.
From scratch.
A new beginning.
Yeah.

It can be done in Yeshua's mighty name.
Amen