Not sure why, but I felt like praising G-d with these tonight... :)
A lot of churches have talent shows, parties, dramas and stuff going on.
Too loud. With all that noise, I'm not sure that they'll be able to listen to what G-d is trying to tell them.
Tonight will be quiet here at home (well, except for the fireworks at midnight), but His voice will be clearly heard in the midst of our hearts. His voice and only His voice tonight.
I love You my King. I love You Yeshua. I love You Abba.
Digno eres mi Dios de toda honra y toda gloria.
Tonight my kids and I want to make it about You and not about us.
You will take center stage, sparklers and everything. Let's celebrate a New Year with You first.
Everything else can wait.
Santo eres mi Senor. Santo! Santo! Santo!
Friday, December 31, 2010
Walking!
I walked today! Alrighty!
Hurts but hey... I'm moving, right?
That's what matters.
We are staying home tonight and as far as I know, a lot of my friends are too.
It's a very good idea.
Cool beans.
Happy New Gregorian! (nerf!)
Hurts but hey... I'm moving, right?
That's what matters.
We are staying home tonight and as far as I know, a lot of my friends are too.
It's a very good idea.
Cool beans.
Happy New Gregorian! (nerf!)
Thursday, December 30, 2010
HypoKPP Attack
I just got back home from the hospital. My baby sister Emma got sick with a UTI and needed care.
Now I can't move. My legs are literally dead.
If this hypokalemic attack continues, they're gonna have to call an ambulance.
Not to complain, but I feel horrible right now.
L-rd... please... help.
Other than that I have attempted to deactivate my Facebook and it keeps giving me an error message.
REALLY want to shut down the thing. I promised G-d I would by the 31st.
Totally upset.
Let me try again.
Now I can't move. My legs are literally dead.
If this hypokalemic attack continues, they're gonna have to call an ambulance.
Not to complain, but I feel horrible right now.
L-rd... please... help.
Other than that I have attempted to deactivate my Facebook and it keeps giving me an error message.
REALLY want to shut down the thing. I promised G-d I would by the 31st.
Totally upset.
Let me try again.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Oh Sweet Praise
Right now I am listening to these songs and my heart is somewhere up in heaven with Yeshua ... and it doesn't want to come down... lol.
Ohhhh sweet L-rd, don't let go. I know that I won't. :)
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING L-RD and I wouldn't trade you for silver and gold or riches untold!
I love You my King!
You ARE the LOVE of my life and the HOPE that I cling to :) Amen.
Ohhhh sweet L-rd, don't let go. I know that I won't. :)
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING L-RD and I wouldn't trade you for silver and gold or riches untold!
I love You my King!
You ARE the LOVE of my life and the HOPE that I cling to :) Amen.
Best Wishes and Blessings to ALL
From my family to yours, we wish you and your loved ones a very blessed year 2011.
Much love,
Claudia, Ricardo and Rose
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Puerto Rico
I can't sleep.
Puerto Rico is on my mind.
Puerto Rico weighs heavy in my heart.
Please L-rd, have mercy of my precious island. My heart aches for my people.
Mi corazon esta con mis islenos y mi familia que todavia reside en la isla.
Puerto Rico is on my mind.
Puerto Rico weighs heavy in my heart.
Please L-rd, have mercy of my precious island. My heart aches for my people.
Mi corazon esta con mis islenos y mi familia que todavia reside en la isla.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Famous Words... by Aslan
I can feel the cold air in my face... and as I look up at the sky I can't help but long for Him... for Yeshua.
Never thinking myself to be perfect, for nothing could be farther from the truth, since I am still unfinished clay... lumped and cracked everywhere.
It's just this thirst I have for my King of Kings and L-rd of L-rds that is insatiable, and a respect for Him so great, that I cannot comprehend how others don't feel the same way I do.
So lost before...and now I'm found. He found me dead in sin and has loved me so much that I don't want to give Him less of me, and maybe in a blunt way I don't want others to give Him less either.
They say that there is no place like home... and right now I long for home, but not this one.
I long for the home G-d has prepared for us.
Here is a clip of Reepicheep... "We have nothing if not belief" he says. Much like this brave little mouse, I can only hope I one day own the right to see "Aslan's Country" (G-d's Kingdom) also.
Charlie Brown
I will admit that Charlie Brown Christmas makes my heart all fuzzy inside... :-)
Especially this part...
Especially this part...
Friday, December 24, 2010
Yup
My kids are doing pretty good. Claudia is creating her fashion magazine with the scrapbooking material I got for her and Ricardo is having a blast with his interactive terodactile.
We have named him Chomp-chomp.
I wish my brother was here.
I really wish he was.
We have named him Chomp-chomp.
I wish my brother was here.
I really wish he was.
Elves Everywhere...
So Betsy needed to run tons of errands for her holiday dinner and asked me if I could keep the kids. Thank goodness for Sea World.
I gathered all of my strength and gave it my best shot!
Needless to say, WE HAD A BLAST!
When those four get together, they truly take over the world. In this case... they took over Sea World, elves and all! LOL!!!!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
WOW! Ohhhhhh WOW!!!
Well, my sister Lee is still here and she treated my kids I to the movies to see Voyage of the Dawn Treader (based on the books by C.S. Lewis)!
I have to say that it was AMAZING and that the last part had me crying, sobbing, etc! Kleenex tissues please!!!
As a child I read all the books and knew, JUST KNEW who Aslan represented without anyone out there explaining it to me.
Voyage of the Dawn Treader is symbolic of how we must listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit rather than to our own when we are tempted, but that victory does not come without a good fight. The sword in the story of course represents the word of G-d!
Our minds must be clear of any thoughts that might eventually become a reality (this is what happened with Edmund when thoughts of fear became a monster that he had to physically overcome), for sin begins in our minds and in our hearts before we take it to action. Trust me when I say that it's just a very fine line from one to the other. That is why we must remain focused on G-d's word (our sword) and His presence!
Not easy. I know. Yet possible if we fight tempation and damaging thoughts much like Lucy, Edmund and Eustace did during this amazing Narnia story.
As I saw Aslan (who really represents the Lion of Judah) scrape the sand to peel off the scales from the dragon, my heart was in my throat! When from under all that dragon came out a better version of Eustace (who had been a rebel and an obnoxious little boy prior to that experience) it really touched me when he said something along the lines of, "It hurt, but it was a good pain."
The book is way more detailed. One night, Eustace (who had turned himself into a dragon when he gave into temptation) heard Aslan calling to him and saying "Follow Me". Eustace told Edmund later that he was afraid, though as a dragon he could've eaten any lion; he wasn't afraid of being eaten, he was just afraid. Following Aslan he was taken to a pool where he wanted to bathe his leg. Aslan told him that he must first undress. Scratching and clawing himself, Eustace desperately tried to shed his scales like a snake skin. After three times through this ordeal, he began to fear that he would never be rid of the scales. Aslan's voice told him "You will have to let me undress you," and he tore the skin from Eustace, picked him up and dropped him into the pool. As Eustace washed he realized that his arm was no longer in pain because he had turned back into a boy. He returned to the camp and told Edmund what had happened to him. It was Edmund who told him that the lion must have been Aslan. Everyone saw after this that Eustace was a much better natured boy.
WOW!!!!
I have got to see that movie again. One time was just not enough for me.
As Reepicheep crossed over past the tall wave into Aslan's Country (which truly represents the Kingdom of G-d), I was incredibly touched. He had fought the good fight and made it! He earned his way in.
I cried and cried when Lucy was bidding Aslan goodbye, since she knew that this was her last trip to Narnia. Then asked Aslan if she would ever see Him again in her world.
His answer? You are all going to love this one if you have not yet seen the movie!
"In your world I have another name, and you must get to know me by it."
Hallelujah!!! Ok.Tears... like right now. LOL.
Intense!
One day we will see "Aslan's Country" too, same as Reepicheep, the little brave mouse who fought like a giant. We often times see ourselves as tiny as a mouse and feel that temptation and sin are way too powerful for us to overcome.
That's not so.
The word of G-d says in Zechariah 4:6 "Not by might, nor by power, but by My SPIRIT!"
That is how spiritual battles are won.
Reepicheep never saw himself as a little mouse. If there is one thing that we learn from the bravest of all the characters is that he NEVER put down his sword. NEVER!
His true strength was in his faith and in the faith he shared with the others. His main goal was to reach Aslan's Country and be with him. He knew that if he did his part in the battle, Aslan would take care of the rest.
Even Eustace learned this lesson after attempting to rid himself of the dragon he'd become because of his sin. Unable to do it with his own strength He had to let Aslan undress him and peel all the scales off. Like he said, the process of the transformation was painful, but it was a good pain.
Totally worth it.
As if the movie wasn't GREAT enough... here is the theme song for the movie!
Absolutely BRILLIANT! (Not an official video, like it states, but whoever managed to put this together did a pretty good job)
I have to say that it was AMAZING and that the last part had me crying, sobbing, etc! Kleenex tissues please!!!
As a child I read all the books and knew, JUST KNEW who Aslan represented without anyone out there explaining it to me.
Voyage of the Dawn Treader is symbolic of how we must listen to the voice of the Holy Spirit rather than to our own when we are tempted, but that victory does not come without a good fight. The sword in the story of course represents the word of G-d!
Our minds must be clear of any thoughts that might eventually become a reality (this is what happened with Edmund when thoughts of fear became a monster that he had to physically overcome), for sin begins in our minds and in our hearts before we take it to action. Trust me when I say that it's just a very fine line from one to the other. That is why we must remain focused on G-d's word (our sword) and His presence!
Not easy. I know. Yet possible if we fight tempation and damaging thoughts much like Lucy, Edmund and Eustace did during this amazing Narnia story.
As I saw Aslan (who really represents the Lion of Judah) scrape the sand to peel off the scales from the dragon, my heart was in my throat! When from under all that dragon came out a better version of Eustace (who had been a rebel and an obnoxious little boy prior to that experience) it really touched me when he said something along the lines of, "It hurt, but it was a good pain."
The book is way more detailed. One night, Eustace (who had turned himself into a dragon when he gave into temptation) heard Aslan calling to him and saying "Follow Me". Eustace told Edmund later that he was afraid, though as a dragon he could've eaten any lion; he wasn't afraid of being eaten, he was just afraid. Following Aslan he was taken to a pool where he wanted to bathe his leg. Aslan told him that he must first undress. Scratching and clawing himself, Eustace desperately tried to shed his scales like a snake skin. After three times through this ordeal, he began to fear that he would never be rid of the scales. Aslan's voice told him "You will have to let me undress you," and he tore the skin from Eustace, picked him up and dropped him into the pool. As Eustace washed he realized that his arm was no longer in pain because he had turned back into a boy. He returned to the camp and told Edmund what had happened to him. It was Edmund who told him that the lion must have been Aslan. Everyone saw after this that Eustace was a much better natured boy.
WOW!!!!
I have got to see that movie again. One time was just not enough for me.
As Reepicheep crossed over past the tall wave into Aslan's Country (which truly represents the Kingdom of G-d), I was incredibly touched. He had fought the good fight and made it! He earned his way in.
I cried and cried when Lucy was bidding Aslan goodbye, since she knew that this was her last trip to Narnia. Then asked Aslan if she would ever see Him again in her world.
His answer? You are all going to love this one if you have not yet seen the movie!
"In your world I have another name, and you must get to know me by it."
Hallelujah!!! Ok.Tears... like right now. LOL.
Intense!
One day we will see "Aslan's Country" too, same as Reepicheep, the little brave mouse who fought like a giant. We often times see ourselves as tiny as a mouse and feel that temptation and sin are way too powerful for us to overcome.
That's not so.
The word of G-d says in Zechariah 4:6 "Not by might, nor by power, but by My SPIRIT!"
That is how spiritual battles are won.
Reepicheep never saw himself as a little mouse. If there is one thing that we learn from the bravest of all the characters is that he NEVER put down his sword. NEVER!
His true strength was in his faith and in the faith he shared with the others. His main goal was to reach Aslan's Country and be with him. He knew that if he did his part in the battle, Aslan would take care of the rest.
Even Eustace learned this lesson after attempting to rid himself of the dragon he'd become because of his sin. Unable to do it with his own strength He had to let Aslan undress him and peel all the scales off. Like he said, the process of the transformation was painful, but it was a good pain.
Totally worth it.
As if the movie wasn't GREAT enough... here is the theme song for the movie!
Absolutely BRILLIANT! (Not an official video, like it states, but whoever managed to put this together did a pretty good job)
Monday, December 20, 2010
The Human Body
Right now I am watching National Geographic's "The Incredible Human Machine" with the kids! Wow!
This will be the science class for the day. Totally love it.
This will be the science class for the day. Totally love it.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Gossip
Gossip
Ohhhhh how I hate thee.
Too many people out there being all analytical in the flesh. G-d wants us to be wise in His Spirit and not wise in our own opinion.
So please, by all means, when He tells you to say something SAY IT! But do it the right way, please.
Let me explain..
When you have a disagreement with someone, it's usually for a really good reason and it should be solved directly. Anything that is said to outsiders who were not there to witness the exchange is nothing other than gossip.
G-d doesn't like that stuff.
You either speak your heart directly to that person(with 1 or 2 witnesses if ultimately necessary) or keep quiet. Once you have spoken your heart, whether they like what you said or not, you STILL keep quiet. What went on between you and that person is none of anybody else's business.
If you don't have someone in your life you can absolutely trust with private matters, then pray to G-d. As a matter of fact, you should always go to Him first. Always.
What if they start saying things behind your back?
Again, stay quiet and say nothing.
Often times we interrupt G-d's defense by being defensive. If this person was defensive and offended, even if you were right and they were wrong, stay peaceful. If this person does not apologize, then apologize first.
Apologize? What? But they said things that... (shhhh! Silence, remember?)
Yup.
Just do it. It won't kill you. Trust me. Take the initiative to forgive and then to ask for forgiveness. G-d will take care of the rest. You have to believe that.
I know that it's not easy to do that, but are you aware that we have a G-d who speaks on our behalf? Are you aware that we have a G-d who knows all things, sees all things and knows your heart? Are you aware that other people's perception of you will be based mostly on your testimony?
Let G-d do the talking.
Be still and let G-d be.
Chillax.
He's got your back.
Trust me.
Gossip may spread like a wild fire, but G-d's TRUTH sooner or later puts it out COMPLETELY.
This, dear friends, always happens sooner or later.
Patience.
Like I said, G-d's got your back. :)
Ohhhhh how I hate thee.
Too many people out there being all analytical in the flesh. G-d wants us to be wise in His Spirit and not wise in our own opinion.
So please, by all means, when He tells you to say something SAY IT! But do it the right way, please.
Let me explain..
When you have a disagreement with someone, it's usually for a really good reason and it should be solved directly. Anything that is said to outsiders who were not there to witness the exchange is nothing other than gossip.
G-d doesn't like that stuff.
You either speak your heart directly to that person(with 1 or 2 witnesses if ultimately necessary) or keep quiet. Once you have spoken your heart, whether they like what you said or not, you STILL keep quiet. What went on between you and that person is none of anybody else's business.
If you don't have someone in your life you can absolutely trust with private matters, then pray to G-d. As a matter of fact, you should always go to Him first. Always.
What if they start saying things behind your back?
Again, stay quiet and say nothing.
Often times we interrupt G-d's defense by being defensive. If this person was defensive and offended, even if you were right and they were wrong, stay peaceful. If this person does not apologize, then apologize first.
Apologize? What? But they said things that... (shhhh! Silence, remember?)
Yup.
Just do it. It won't kill you. Trust me. Take the initiative to forgive and then to ask for forgiveness. G-d will take care of the rest. You have to believe that.
I know that it's not easy to do that, but are you aware that we have a G-d who speaks on our behalf? Are you aware that we have a G-d who knows all things, sees all things and knows your heart? Are you aware that other people's perception of you will be based mostly on your testimony?
Let G-d do the talking.
Be still and let G-d be.
Chillax.
He's got your back.
Trust me.
Gossip may spread like a wild fire, but G-d's TRUTH sooner or later puts it out COMPLETELY.
This, dear friends, always happens sooner or later.
Patience.
Like I said, G-d's got your back. :)
Quantum Physics
Unlike many people out there who are as fascinated with Quantum Physics as I am, I have always believed that Quantum Physics proves without any doubt that G-d exists.
Usually Quantum Physics is used to prove the contrary, but I just don't see how that is even possible based on the facts.
I won't get into it right now because it is rather late, but the truth is that we were created... and yes... G-d created something out of nothing. There is no doubt about that, and that precisely is one the main points of Quantum Physics. Here is a really good video (short but good) that explains just a tiny fraction of why Quantum Physics actually proves the existence of G-d.
Usually Quantum Physics is used to prove the contrary, but I just don't see how that is even possible based on the facts.
I won't get into it right now because it is rather late, but the truth is that we were created... and yes... G-d created something out of nothing. There is no doubt about that, and that precisely is one the main points of Quantum Physics. Here is a really good video (short but good) that explains just a tiny fraction of why Quantum Physics actually proves the existence of G-d.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Can't Do My Anthem Work...
I have deadlines...and I can't get the work done.
This is a bit stressful.
Ugh.
This is a bit stressful.
Ugh.
One G-d!
"Thus saith the LORD the King of Israel, and his redeemer the LORD of hosts; I am the first, and I am the last; and beside me there is no G-d." Isaiah 44:6
Yes.
Just one G-d.
ONE.
And I LOVE HIM with all of my heart.
Yes.
Just one G-d.
ONE.
And I LOVE HIM with all of my heart.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
My Kids Traded a Movie Date For...
So I was dying to go see the Voyage of the Dawn Treader and I was feeling well enough to go to The Loop with the kids. As we were approaching The Loop they saw it!
Books A Million!
Claudia: "Mom, what if we just go there instead. We can always wait for the movie to come out on video."
Me: "You sure?"
Ricardo: "Yes Mom! We're sure! They have this new book on Oceanography that has all the blah blah blah blah blah... on the blah blah blah... and it shows pictures of the blah blah blah..."
Claudia: "Yeah Mom! I want another Judy Blume book and a Lego architectural guide so I can build the White House. It's so cool because blah blah blah and the pieces are blah blah blah blah blah, mounted on the blah blah blah blah blah..."
Of course... that's what I heard because my mind was simply stuck on... "I cannot believe that they would trade the newest Narnia movie for books. I just cannot believe that I won't get to see this movie today because they want to read books about FISH and LEGOS!"
My kids are nerds... just like their mother.
Narnia is going to have to wait, and G-d knows I won't go see it without my kids. It's a family movie... BAH HUMBUG!!!!
Books A Million!
Claudia: "Mom, what if we just go there instead. We can always wait for the movie to come out on video."
Me: "You sure?"
Ricardo: "Yes Mom! We're sure! They have this new book on Oceanography that has all the blah blah blah blah blah... on the blah blah blah... and it shows pictures of the blah blah blah..."
Claudia: "Yeah Mom! I want another Judy Blume book and a Lego architectural guide so I can build the White House. It's so cool because blah blah blah and the pieces are blah blah blah blah blah, mounted on the blah blah blah blah blah..."
Of course... that's what I heard because my mind was simply stuck on... "I cannot believe that they would trade the newest Narnia movie for books. I just cannot believe that I won't get to see this movie today because they want to read books about FISH and LEGOS!"
My kids are nerds... just like their mother.
Narnia is going to have to wait, and G-d knows I won't go see it without my kids. It's a family movie... BAH HUMBUG!!!!
Saying, "I Am Sorry" Won't Kill You
Yeah. At times we just need to take the initiative to make things right.
I don't like it when people get hurt by things that I say.
Other's opinions may not matter much to me... but hurting someone is not exactly my cup of tea.
Saying that you are sorry is a good way to let others know that you are not so high up on a pedestal that you can't express those words.
Saying that you are sorry and meaning it is perhaps the best way to start the new year.
Not everyone out there knows how to do that because they are prideful or whatever else.
Sometimes I can be a "cabeza de pollo" and say the stupidest things. Everyone is a "cabeza de pollo" at some point or another...
I just don't have a problem admitting it, while others can carry a chip on their shoulders forever.
Who wants that load? Really!
It's the G-d way, or the highway.
What's done is done and saying "I'm sorry" is all that's left to do.
Now, whether forgiven or not, I move on. It's a beautiful day.
Maybe I can sit outdoors and enjoy the fresh air and the warmth of the sun.
Cuba...
L-rd, please heal me and send me and my kids to Cuba.
I don't like it when people get hurt by things that I say.
Other's opinions may not matter much to me... but hurting someone is not exactly my cup of tea.
Saying that you are sorry is a good way to let others know that you are not so high up on a pedestal that you can't express those words.
Saying that you are sorry and meaning it is perhaps the best way to start the new year.
Not everyone out there knows how to do that because they are prideful or whatever else.
Sometimes I can be a "cabeza de pollo" and say the stupidest things. Everyone is a "cabeza de pollo" at some point or another...
I just don't have a problem admitting it, while others can carry a chip on their shoulders forever.
Who wants that load? Really!
It's the G-d way, or the highway.
What's done is done and saying "I'm sorry" is all that's left to do.
Now, whether forgiven or not, I move on. It's a beautiful day.
Maybe I can sit outdoors and enjoy the fresh air and the warmth of the sun.
Cuba...
L-rd, please heal me and send me and my kids to Cuba.
Pictures of ME
My body ached all over, but I smiled through it. Betsy drove because I simply couldn't and I barely moved around... but it was nice to take the girls to Sea World and get some fresh air, even if it was only for a couple of hours.
Took lots of pictures of myself today. Not something I usually do, but I wanted my kids to have lots of pics, plus my friends had already been complaining that I post lots of pictures of my kids, but none of myself. So there. I re-opened my Facebook to post the pics as a final favor. Smiles. Pain. Smiles. Pain. Smiles. Pain. That's how my day went... except that I must admit, that smiling and laughing really helped minimize the pain! LOL!
G-d is good all the time.
That's all I have to say.
I'll leave my Facebook account open until December 31st and then I'll close the darn thing for good. I am proud of myself. I didn't look at it for days until it was time to post those pictures. Gotta let it go...and I am! It feels really good and I know G-d is pleased.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
RISE AND SHINE... brrrrrr.
I have spent the last 20 minutes trying to peel my children out bed... literally.
Ricardo has the sniffles and Claudia is snuggled under three sets of blankets and does not want to come out!
It's really cold in Florida folks.
They still have school, though. They both have English tests today and Emily has her Spelling quiz and she will be here shortly, soooooooo it's time to get this going!
L-rd give me strength.
Ricardo has the sniffles and Claudia is snuggled under three sets of blankets and does not want to come out!
It's really cold in Florida folks.
They still have school, though. They both have English tests today and Emily has her Spelling quiz and she will be here shortly, soooooooo it's time to get this going!
L-rd give me strength.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Puerto Rico
Wow.
Why do I have Puerto Rico in my head and in my heart today?
Actually... it has been that way for several days now.
Praying for those in the island.
Not sure what's going down... but I have such a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just can't shake it off.
Time to pray.
Time to pray intensely.
I so wish my brother would come to Florida with his family.
Why do I have Puerto Rico in my head and in my heart today?
Actually... it has been that way for several days now.
Praying for those in the island.
Not sure what's going down... but I have such a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach and I just can't shake it off.
Time to pray.
Time to pray intensely.
I so wish my brother would come to Florida with his family.
Frozen... Our Butts Are FROZEN!
WHY ohhhhhh WHY is it 27 degrees in CENTRAL FLORIDA??????????
Ohhhhhhh my gosh.
Ok. Time for the "Weeble" look.
We layer our clothes to the point of "roundness" and then we wobble to keep our balance.
But that's ok. It's safe because "Weebles wobble but they don't fall down"!
IT's COLD!!!!! Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
Ohhhhhhh my gosh.
Ok. Time for the "Weeble" look.
We layer our clothes to the point of "roundness" and then we wobble to keep our balance.
But that's ok. It's safe because "Weebles wobble but they don't fall down"!
IT's COLD!!!!! Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
Monday, December 13, 2010
Huge Potassium Low
Wow.
I'm not well today at all.
Not good.
I plan my days as if I am this butterfly that is capable of flying from place to place. Hey! It's called PUSHING it.
Yeah. But it's how I keep my kids happy and keep myself "moving" even when I barely can.
OH MY GOODNESS!!! My legs are bricks this morning.
Seriously.
Wow.
Abba... I think I'm having my first caffeine "thingy" TODAY!
I'm not waiting.
LOL.
I'm not well today at all.
Not good.
I plan my days as if I am this butterfly that is capable of flying from place to place. Hey! It's called PUSHING it.
Yeah. But it's how I keep my kids happy and keep myself "moving" even when I barely can.
OH MY GOODNESS!!! My legs are bricks this morning.
Seriously.
Wow.
Abba... I think I'm having my first caffeine "thingy" TODAY!
I'm not waiting.
LOL.
So Far, So Good
In spite of all the emails received, I'm not going back on my word this time. I am done. Done with Facebook. Done with networking sites.
I keep my blogger because it's my journal. It's an outlet for me to write what is in my heart and mind without getting anyone to comment on it. I disabled that feature on here too.
What can I say?
My afternoon was pretty good.
Took my kids to Hebrew class, ate pasteles at Betsy's and fixed her husband's computer (some pop up virus kept interrupting web browsing and it was just annoying).
So, it's 3 a.m. on Monday. Busy schedule today.
Homeschool until 2 p.m.
Off to K-Mart to exchange a futon.
Then it's off to BJ's to do groceries and after that I have rush home and get ready. I have been invited to meet up with some people who are visiting the area and are pastors or something like that. Not sure who they are or exactly what they do.
Anita and Nasir Sidikki something, from Oklahoma.
This guy from some church in the area contacted me via email to tell me that they wanted to meet me. Not sure what about...
Oh well.
I hope that whatever they have to tell me doesn't take too long. I have Enlace at 7p.m.
Tomorrow Tuesday it's more homeschooling and maybe off to a local park with the kids if the weather is nice. I'm honestly not feeling too good. My arms and legs are not exactly cooperating with me and I have to limp my way around a bit slower than usual. It sucks. REALLY.
Not to complain, but this wonderful cold weather (I LOVE IT) has it's downside when it comes to my potassium deficiency.
Well, after watching "A Beautiful Truth" I might just attempt to pull off one of those coffee "thingys". For those of you who saw the documentary, you all know what I'm talking about. LOL! It's embarrassing... and seriously, I have never tried to do something like that EVER!
Then again, if it increases the potassium levels as directly and as quickly as it claims to, then it is definitely worth the try.
Yawn. Ok. I should go back to bed, but I think I'll pray for a little while.
I want G-d... like a lot!
:o)
I keep my blogger because it's my journal. It's an outlet for me to write what is in my heart and mind without getting anyone to comment on it. I disabled that feature on here too.
What can I say?
My afternoon was pretty good.
Took my kids to Hebrew class, ate pasteles at Betsy's and fixed her husband's computer (some pop up virus kept interrupting web browsing and it was just annoying).
So, it's 3 a.m. on Monday. Busy schedule today.
Homeschool until 2 p.m.
Off to K-Mart to exchange a futon.
Then it's off to BJ's to do groceries and after that I have rush home and get ready. I have been invited to meet up with some people who are visiting the area and are pastors or something like that. Not sure who they are or exactly what they do.
Anita and Nasir Sidikki something, from Oklahoma.
This guy from some church in the area contacted me via email to tell me that they wanted to meet me. Not sure what about...
Oh well.
I hope that whatever they have to tell me doesn't take too long. I have Enlace at 7p.m.
Tomorrow Tuesday it's more homeschooling and maybe off to a local park with the kids if the weather is nice. I'm honestly not feeling too good. My arms and legs are not exactly cooperating with me and I have to limp my way around a bit slower than usual. It sucks. REALLY.
Not to complain, but this wonderful cold weather (I LOVE IT) has it's downside when it comes to my potassium deficiency.
Well, after watching "A Beautiful Truth" I might just attempt to pull off one of those coffee "thingys". For those of you who saw the documentary, you all know what I'm talking about. LOL! It's embarrassing... and seriously, I have never tried to do something like that EVER!
Then again, if it increases the potassium levels as directly and as quickly as it claims to, then it is definitely worth the try.
Yawn. Ok. I should go back to bed, but I think I'll pray for a little while.
I want G-d... like a lot!
:o)
Sunday, December 12, 2010
No More Facebook
I am going to close my Facebook account. Wow. I have tried to do this several times in the past and it has been really hard. That's not a good thing for sure.
After prayer this morning, I pondered on several things.
Would Yeshua have a Facebook account? I wondered.
Did he really need one?
Tee hee :o)
Nah. I'm sure He didn't.
Yeshua gathered the biggest network of followers ever known to man way before computers were ever invented.
Also, He was a true friend to those he came in contact with.
He was not just curious. He was not just browsing into other people's lives.
He was genuine, always.
Integrity. Truth. Simplicity. Love. Loyalty are the traits of a true friend.
My friends are my friends out in the open for everyone to see.
I don't hide my friends.
We are allowed to have differences and disagreements. We are permitted to be diverse and to think differently. That is how we help each other grow.
I don't have to like the things my friends like. They don't have to like mine.
When Yeshua gathered His twelve, ohhhh what a diverse group they were!
They couldn't have been more different, and Yeshua knew this. He chose them that way on purpose.
We each have a brain that works differently from someone else's so that in our ideas and disagreements we can enrich each other and also protect one another, for the danger that one cannot see at times is brought to light by a good friend.
My experiences in life have been many. I have seen injustices and truths. I have seen things that I did not like and that I have often walked away from. I have seen those who have wronged a friend and later deny that they did. I have seen lies. I have seen truths. I have seen sinners and saints and I have been a sinner, and still am to this day. A work in progress, I can look back at very bad choices and see great improvement as I have chosen to pursue Yeshua's light. So I am not who I used to be, but I am still not quite where I should be.
Nobody out there is.
That goal is unattainable until we are finally with our King. For even great men of G-d fall every single day, which makes people like me feel like we are not doing so bad after all in comparison.
Nobody else has my heart.
Nobody else out there has yours.
If my focus is to follow Yeshua and be by His side one day, then I seriously need to set all distractions aside as much as I possibly can.
When I think of Facebook, I think of a syringe that feeds us a boost of "temporary relief for loneliness" whenever we post something that someone out there likes.
All of a sudden, it's as if we are not alone in a car or in our room... or even at work. We hear our phone buzzing to a response, a wall post or a picture. Our thoughts otherwise invisible to others are suddenly read by a world of people, half of which we have not even met in person, or seen in years.
For a single mom like me, it feels good to stay in touch with people even when I know I'll get to see them later in the day. Without Facebook or MySpace (although I haven't had an account there for two years now), we feel disconnected. Unable to brag about our trips, kids, pictures... our world!
Before Facebook, our lives were private and unnoticed. Our thoughts and whereabouts a mystery to others.
Then I thought about Yeshua.
He went from place to place and made a huge amount of friends (and enemies too), but the way He did it did not require technology.
He would knock on people's door.
He would come in and dine with them.
He even told a short statured tax collector that He would dine with him.
He sensed a woman's faith through his garment in the midst of a thick crowd, and healed her.
He gave hope to a prostitute.
He fed a hungry crowd.
He touched the lives of others... literally.
I think about Cuba a lot.
Strange right?
At times I see myself there, feeding kids, sharing G-d's Word with other single moms, providing shelter to a girl who has chosen to prostitute herself in order to feed her family or buy herself a pair of jeans.
I don't see myself using a computer or watching television. There wouldn't be much time for that if I were busy doing what G-d has placed in my heart.
I would be knocking on people's door.
Dining with them or having them dine with me.
Helping a sick child or woman through an illness.
Giving hope to a prostitute.
Feeding the hungry.
Touching their lives... literally.
So if Yeshua knows what's in my heart, is He just waiting for me to give it all up so that the door opens?
I am nothing without Him and what I have, I have through His love and mercy. Even my children were His gift to me.
So right now I just want to let Him know that I'll trade Facebook, commodities, and all the comforts and distractions of this world to be able to do things the way He did.
At times I have wondered about the changes in my life. How certain events marred me to the point of changing my perspective. All of a sudden I knew and understood pain like I hadn't before. Unable to express my emotions, I had no outlet. I knew that what I felt inside was real, whether it was love or anger, or even joy... so when I wasn't getting throught to others, I knew that I was getting through to G-d. You see, G-d looked past my lack of expression and into my heart and He knew what was there. He still does when everyone else doesn't. It's been easy for me to have a relationship with Him, because I know that I don't have to fake a smile, a gesture... and because He is real, yet unseen, I don't have to struggle to figure Him out either.
Facebook? Facebook is great for people who know how they feel and can write it out, but can't articulate or show the world with their faces what's really in their hearts. I don't want this crutch in my life anymore.
I want to reach those who are not being reached. Not sure where that is...
but I know what it's like to be disconnected from the world until someone takes the time to knock on a door and come in, and sit with me, and talk with me and get to know ME instead of attempting to interpret me according to the gospel or "gossip" of someone else who really doesn't know what I'm about.
I've been ambushed into dying my hair, wearing make up, dressing up and out of my simple jeans and black t'shirts by people who would rather waste their time changing my outer appearance than getting to know my heart.
It was not easy to let down my guard. I've been hurt by people I've gotten close to. We all have been at some point or another, I think.
So back to my mission dreams...
I think of Cuba.
Who knows, right?
Dear L-rd,
All I can say is that my heart is willing, and my kids would be coming along for the ride.
Even my physical ailment can't keep me from giving You what's left of my life.
I love You HaShem.
I really do.
Yours,
Rose
After prayer this morning, I pondered on several things.
Would Yeshua have a Facebook account? I wondered.
Did he really need one?
Tee hee :o)
Nah. I'm sure He didn't.
Yeshua gathered the biggest network of followers ever known to man way before computers were ever invented.
Also, He was a true friend to those he came in contact with.
He was not just curious. He was not just browsing into other people's lives.
He was genuine, always.
Integrity. Truth. Simplicity. Love. Loyalty are the traits of a true friend.
My friends are my friends out in the open for everyone to see.
I don't hide my friends.
We are allowed to have differences and disagreements. We are permitted to be diverse and to think differently. That is how we help each other grow.
I don't have to like the things my friends like. They don't have to like mine.
When Yeshua gathered His twelve, ohhhh what a diverse group they were!
They couldn't have been more different, and Yeshua knew this. He chose them that way on purpose.
We each have a brain that works differently from someone else's so that in our ideas and disagreements we can enrich each other and also protect one another, for the danger that one cannot see at times is brought to light by a good friend.
My experiences in life have been many. I have seen injustices and truths. I have seen things that I did not like and that I have often walked away from. I have seen those who have wronged a friend and later deny that they did. I have seen lies. I have seen truths. I have seen sinners and saints and I have been a sinner, and still am to this day. A work in progress, I can look back at very bad choices and see great improvement as I have chosen to pursue Yeshua's light. So I am not who I used to be, but I am still not quite where I should be.
Nobody out there is.
That goal is unattainable until we are finally with our King. For even great men of G-d fall every single day, which makes people like me feel like we are not doing so bad after all in comparison.
Nobody else has my heart.
Nobody else out there has yours.
If my focus is to follow Yeshua and be by His side one day, then I seriously need to set all distractions aside as much as I possibly can.
When I think of Facebook, I think of a syringe that feeds us a boost of "temporary relief for loneliness" whenever we post something that someone out there likes.
All of a sudden, it's as if we are not alone in a car or in our room... or even at work. We hear our phone buzzing to a response, a wall post or a picture. Our thoughts otherwise invisible to others are suddenly read by a world of people, half of which we have not even met in person, or seen in years.
For a single mom like me, it feels good to stay in touch with people even when I know I'll get to see them later in the day. Without Facebook or MySpace (although I haven't had an account there for two years now), we feel disconnected. Unable to brag about our trips, kids, pictures... our world!
Before Facebook, our lives were private and unnoticed. Our thoughts and whereabouts a mystery to others.
Then I thought about Yeshua.
He went from place to place and made a huge amount of friends (and enemies too), but the way He did it did not require technology.
He would knock on people's door.
He would come in and dine with them.
He even told a short statured tax collector that He would dine with him.
He sensed a woman's faith through his garment in the midst of a thick crowd, and healed her.
He gave hope to a prostitute.
He fed a hungry crowd.
He touched the lives of others... literally.
I think about Cuba a lot.
Strange right?
At times I see myself there, feeding kids, sharing G-d's Word with other single moms, providing shelter to a girl who has chosen to prostitute herself in order to feed her family or buy herself a pair of jeans.
I don't see myself using a computer or watching television. There wouldn't be much time for that if I were busy doing what G-d has placed in my heart.
I would be knocking on people's door.
Dining with them or having them dine with me.
Helping a sick child or woman through an illness.
Giving hope to a prostitute.
Feeding the hungry.
Touching their lives... literally.
So if Yeshua knows what's in my heart, is He just waiting for me to give it all up so that the door opens?
I am nothing without Him and what I have, I have through His love and mercy. Even my children were His gift to me.
So right now I just want to let Him know that I'll trade Facebook, commodities, and all the comforts and distractions of this world to be able to do things the way He did.
At times I have wondered about the changes in my life. How certain events marred me to the point of changing my perspective. All of a sudden I knew and understood pain like I hadn't before. Unable to express my emotions, I had no outlet. I knew that what I felt inside was real, whether it was love or anger, or even joy... so when I wasn't getting throught to others, I knew that I was getting through to G-d. You see, G-d looked past my lack of expression and into my heart and He knew what was there. He still does when everyone else doesn't. It's been easy for me to have a relationship with Him, because I know that I don't have to fake a smile, a gesture... and because He is real, yet unseen, I don't have to struggle to figure Him out either.
Facebook? Facebook is great for people who know how they feel and can write it out, but can't articulate or show the world with their faces what's really in their hearts. I don't want this crutch in my life anymore.
I want to reach those who are not being reached. Not sure where that is...
but I know what it's like to be disconnected from the world until someone takes the time to knock on a door and come in, and sit with me, and talk with me and get to know ME instead of attempting to interpret me according to the gospel or "gossip" of someone else who really doesn't know what I'm about.
I've been ambushed into dying my hair, wearing make up, dressing up and out of my simple jeans and black t'shirts by people who would rather waste their time changing my outer appearance than getting to know my heart.
It was not easy to let down my guard. I've been hurt by people I've gotten close to. We all have been at some point or another, I think.
So back to my mission dreams...
I think of Cuba.
Who knows, right?
Dear L-rd,
All I can say is that my heart is willing, and my kids would be coming along for the ride.
Even my physical ailment can't keep me from giving You what's left of my life.
I love You HaShem.
I really do.
Yours,
Rose
Friday, December 10, 2010
Being Simply Blunt
The kids had a wonderful Chanukah.
Their joy is mine as well.
What can I say...
G-d has been good.
Simplicity works for me.
Nothing complicated.
Just the basics.
G-d.
Family.
Truth.
Love.
The world of an aspie requires extra effort in the social part. My son is doing excellent in identifying social cues he often would miss.
We are doing much better.
I am proud of him.
Right now, truth lies in our hearts. We express it bluntly and honestly and not everyone out there digs that.
That's ok.
I imagine Yeshua being blunt and honest with the Pharisees... and trust me when I say that they didn't like that about him.
Then again, some of us were created to not care much about others opinions about us.
That's how we are bold enough to get a message across.
We are not afraid of stigmas. We are not afraid of what others may think.
Like Dr. Seuss once wrote:
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
Their joy is mine as well.
What can I say...
G-d has been good.
Simplicity works for me.
Nothing complicated.
Just the basics.
G-d.
Family.
Truth.
Love.
The world of an aspie requires extra effort in the social part. My son is doing excellent in identifying social cues he often would miss.
We are doing much better.
I am proud of him.
Right now, truth lies in our hearts. We express it bluntly and honestly and not everyone out there digs that.
That's ok.
I imagine Yeshua being blunt and honest with the Pharisees... and trust me when I say that they didn't like that about him.
Then again, some of us were created to not care much about others opinions about us.
That's how we are bold enough to get a message across.
We are not afraid of stigmas. We are not afraid of what others may think.
Like Dr. Seuss once wrote:
“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
Monday, December 6, 2010
I Don't Feel Well
Wow. I am so glad I had great holiday fun with my kids this week because I can't even walk today.
I don't want to go to the hospital...
Abba, a little help here HaShem.
Love You my King.
I don't want to go to the hospital...
Abba, a little help here HaShem.
Love You my King.
Monday, November 22, 2010
This Week
I think I am going to hide for a little bit.
This week is for my kids.
I'll share in pictures.
I don't exactly feel like words.
This week is for my kids.
I'll share in pictures.
I don't exactly feel like words.
City of Life in Kissimmee FLORIDA!
The equipment used on this video was a steadicam and camera crane op with a Panasonic HVX-200 camera at 24fps.
Now, that's what I'm talking about!
Now, that's what I'm talking about!
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Ricardo's Dream
This morning my son told me about a dream he had last night and it made me all fuzzy inside.
He woke up to tell me that he saw me being rocked inside really big arms and that he heard a soft lullaby. In the dream he saw me crying but he also saw a big hand drying my tears.
I asked Ricardo, "Do you think it was G-d drying my tears?"
Ricardo's answer was immediate, "I KNOW it was G-d drying your tears Mom."
(Tears)
I'm so glad it's up to G-d to examine our hearts.
He knows the truth... always.
That never changes.
(sigh)
Can I live to see you come in the clouds?
Can You, my King, give me the privilege of experiencing such a magnificent event with my children? I want us to hold hands on our way up...
He woke up to tell me that he saw me being rocked inside really big arms and that he heard a soft lullaby. In the dream he saw me crying but he also saw a big hand drying my tears.
I asked Ricardo, "Do you think it was G-d drying my tears?"
Ricardo's answer was immediate, "I KNOW it was G-d drying your tears Mom."
(Tears)
I'm so glad it's up to G-d to examine our hearts.
He knows the truth... always.
That never changes.
(sigh)
Can I live to see you come in the clouds?
Can You, my King, give me the privilege of experiencing such a magnificent event with my children? I want us to hold hands on our way up...
Friday, November 19, 2010
Condemnation: An Expression of Strong Disapproval
Tonight after service, my heart was spiritually held by the most amazing sisters in Yeshua. We prayed and cried, and G-d soothed me.
After serious prayer, G-d confirmed that my words had come from Him, as harsh as they were, and that it was His doing... not mine.
I cried. I cried and asked G-d why. Why did it have to be me? Why couldn't He have used someone else to address a truth that had been hiding behind false appearances?
Discovering also that a person is a liar while showing a different face to the world, is not easy. In fact, it hurts. It hurts to bring forth the truth to people like that.
No. I don't know this person's heart... but G-d does, and that suffices.
There are some people I don't ever want to meet and I am ok with that. I have been ok with that for several years now, and G-d told me. He told me what was REALLY there and He has been right from the very beginning. The truth is the truth. Don't dress it up with lies and falseness because it will eventually come right through for everyone to see. Fake self righteousness only works temporarily.
Meaning of the word condemnation: an expression of strong disapproval
Yes. I disapprove.
I disapprove of fake self righteous people.
I disapprove of liars.
I disapprove of hypocrites.
Some people forget their own stories. They forget what they once said and when they get caught switching it around to make themselves look good, they don't like it. Pride... wow. What a double edge sword!
I caught this person in a lie today. He had said one thing to me and another to his family in regards to what really happened to him during a past relationship. The girl in question never double dated. She moved on quickly (this is known as a rebound) but only after she finally asked him, after almost a year, if their relationship would soon go to the next level and he responded that he was not sure.
Imagine her frustration after he had already introduced her to his family, particularly his mother who approved of her. He himself shared this information with me.
THAT is what he told me a couple of years ago over the phone.
As I read his text messages and that email, I was stunned.
Stunned at the lie.
Stunned at the words of self justification.
Stunned at what pride does to a man who claims Godliness but sends text messages (just this past August) such as "The weather in Florida is hot, like the ladies?" or in reference to potential dates, "The menu looks good..."
The whole email on his reasons for "not dating" because he is waiting on G-d (when I already know based on previous emails and conversations that he has dated quite a bit) simply baffled me. I even thought for a second that this was not the same man... Who was he kidding by being so defensive?
Definitely not G-d.
This person has lost my respect.
I could care less what title he holds or who he is related to.
Courtesy and integrity are two separate things.
If out of courtesy to his family I would've held back my words, I think I would have done him a disservice. G-d confirmed that the indignation within me came directly from Him and I am glad that I had that amazing prayer moment with people who had no idea what had happened. They were used by the L-rd to bring a word of peace into my heart and I praise Him for that.
I wondered about Nathan and how he felt when he confronted David...
But honestly, my prayer is that G-d never uses me that way ever again.
After serious prayer, G-d confirmed that my words had come from Him, as harsh as they were, and that it was His doing... not mine.
I cried. I cried and asked G-d why. Why did it have to be me? Why couldn't He have used someone else to address a truth that had been hiding behind false appearances?
Discovering also that a person is a liar while showing a different face to the world, is not easy. In fact, it hurts. It hurts to bring forth the truth to people like that.
No. I don't know this person's heart... but G-d does, and that suffices.
There are some people I don't ever want to meet and I am ok with that. I have been ok with that for several years now, and G-d told me. He told me what was REALLY there and He has been right from the very beginning. The truth is the truth. Don't dress it up with lies and falseness because it will eventually come right through for everyone to see. Fake self righteousness only works temporarily.
Meaning of the word condemnation: an expression of strong disapproval
Yes. I disapprove.
I disapprove of fake self righteous people.
I disapprove of liars.
I disapprove of hypocrites.
Some people forget their own stories. They forget what they once said and when they get caught switching it around to make themselves look good, they don't like it. Pride... wow. What a double edge sword!
I caught this person in a lie today. He had said one thing to me and another to his family in regards to what really happened to him during a past relationship. The girl in question never double dated. She moved on quickly (this is known as a rebound) but only after she finally asked him, after almost a year, if their relationship would soon go to the next level and he responded that he was not sure.
Imagine her frustration after he had already introduced her to his family, particularly his mother who approved of her. He himself shared this information with me.
THAT is what he told me a couple of years ago over the phone.
As I read his text messages and that email, I was stunned.
Stunned at the lie.
Stunned at the words of self justification.
Stunned at what pride does to a man who claims Godliness but sends text messages (just this past August) such as "The weather in Florida is hot, like the ladies?" or in reference to potential dates, "The menu looks good..."
The whole email on his reasons for "not dating" because he is waiting on G-d (when I already know based on previous emails and conversations that he has dated quite a bit) simply baffled me. I even thought for a second that this was not the same man... Who was he kidding by being so defensive?
Definitely not G-d.
This person has lost my respect.
I could care less what title he holds or who he is related to.
Courtesy and integrity are two separate things.
If out of courtesy to his family I would've held back my words, I think I would have done him a disservice. G-d confirmed that the indignation within me came directly from Him and I am glad that I had that amazing prayer moment with people who had no idea what had happened. They were used by the L-rd to bring a word of peace into my heart and I praise Him for that.
I wondered about Nathan and how he felt when he confronted David...
But honestly, my prayer is that G-d never uses me that way ever again.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
The Bible Is NOT A Book About Destiny
The Bible is not a book about destiny. It is a book about decisions. Are you a parasite who wants what is in someone else's hand? Or are you G-d's protege? A protege is a passionate learner who wants what is in G-d's heart. Keep in mind always that most seasons in our lives are determined by our decisions and that reaching is the proof of passion. G-d is not going to give you anything you have not decided to pursue.
This week I had the opportunity to watch a movie based on the life of Temple Grandin and I was blown away! To see a severely autistic child eventually end up with a PhD was simply amazing, but what was more amazing to me was her mother's ongoing struggle to keep her "engaged" in the real world.
THAT right there is what made the huge difference for Temple.
Temple Grandin's mom was determined and decisive when it came to pursuing a normal life for her daughter, and NEVER gave up.
So many others out there have done the same. Augusto and Michaela Odone were parents to a wonderful little boy who developed ALD. They were ordinary parents. Neither one had a doctorate degree. Mr. and Mrs. Odone were ordinary people holding ordinary jobs and they both sough out a cure for this disease by studying for long hours at the library, consulting with doctors and traveling to find answers. Although the damage was irreversible for Lorenzo, the Odones found the actual cure for the disease and saved the lives of many other children with this ailment. Lorenzo's Oil is the title of the movie to this amazing story.
Extraordinary Measures is also another story about John and Aileen Crowley whose two children suffered from Pompe's disease. Mr. Crowley also sought out a cure for this illness with the help of a glycobiologist and was literally able to save his children's life and who knows how many others.
Stories like these inspire me so much and make me realize that too often people sit down waiting for granted prayer requests to fall from the sky without actively doing something towards a positive outcome.
As sick as I have been I have made the solid decision to lead a normal life. This week I was hit hard by a virus but that did not stop me. One moment I was at the hospital (short stay) and the next I was enjoying a slumber party with my kids. If I stay home in a bed feeling the pain, then it will never go away.
For a while I laughed and had fun, and guess what? The pain was GONE! Even the bronchitis I caught this week didn't seem that bad while I was there having a blast with my chidren.
In the process of trying to improve my health I have been seeking out information on different diets and workouts that won't trigger more attacks. Well GUESS WHAT?
For the first time in a long time I had a short stay at the hospital because my heart was strong enough to deal with the virus and so were my lungs. I even had bronchitis on top of all that, but apparently, according to the doctors, I was strong enough this time to be sent home!
So you see, I pray but I act on it too! I pursue health.
All that green stuff I drink all day is paying off!
I've eliminated lots of stuff from my diet, but I allow myself a moderate break during special ocassions. I also watched a video called FOOD MATTERS that was quite impressive! Doing more research on the subject I have realized that most of the stuff that we as Americans consume is nothing but poison to the body because by the time food reaches the stores it is packed with pesticides and chemicals that hurt us. Did you all know that G-d created a body that pretty much heals itself when nutrition is optimal? VITAMINS are important! SUPER IMPORTANT because our food lacks the level of nutrition that our bodies need.(I am not here to sell anything. You can buy whichever brand of vitamins you want!)
Yeshua died so that we could life and have it ABUNDANTLY! Not only am I STILL learning how to spiritually live according to HIS WORD, but I am also learning how to live according to HIS nutrition standards! The information is in the BIBLE itself and even in the food that HE created for US!
Check this out!
As far as I am concerned there is HOPE all around me! I have DECIDED to pursue LIFE and I am honoring G-d in this pursuit! Why? Because I am not being a parasite. I am seeking the knowledge and wisdom that comes from the heart of G-d! His LOVE is everywhere and this shows in the food that He created for us, but we have failed in seeking this knowledge out.
I am pursuing life!
What have YOU decided to pursue?
This week I had the opportunity to watch a movie based on the life of Temple Grandin and I was blown away! To see a severely autistic child eventually end up with a PhD was simply amazing, but what was more amazing to me was her mother's ongoing struggle to keep her "engaged" in the real world.
THAT right there is what made the huge difference for Temple.
Temple Grandin's mom was determined and decisive when it came to pursuing a normal life for her daughter, and NEVER gave up.
So many others out there have done the same. Augusto and Michaela Odone were parents to a wonderful little boy who developed ALD. They were ordinary parents. Neither one had a doctorate degree. Mr. and Mrs. Odone were ordinary people holding ordinary jobs and they both sough out a cure for this disease by studying for long hours at the library, consulting with doctors and traveling to find answers. Although the damage was irreversible for Lorenzo, the Odones found the actual cure for the disease and saved the lives of many other children with this ailment. Lorenzo's Oil is the title of the movie to this amazing story.
Extraordinary Measures is also another story about John and Aileen Crowley whose two children suffered from Pompe's disease. Mr. Crowley also sought out a cure for this illness with the help of a glycobiologist and was literally able to save his children's life and who knows how many others.
Stories like these inspire me so much and make me realize that too often people sit down waiting for granted prayer requests to fall from the sky without actively doing something towards a positive outcome.
As sick as I have been I have made the solid decision to lead a normal life. This week I was hit hard by a virus but that did not stop me. One moment I was at the hospital (short stay) and the next I was enjoying a slumber party with my kids. If I stay home in a bed feeling the pain, then it will never go away.
For a while I laughed and had fun, and guess what? The pain was GONE! Even the bronchitis I caught this week didn't seem that bad while I was there having a blast with my chidren.
In the process of trying to improve my health I have been seeking out information on different diets and workouts that won't trigger more attacks. Well GUESS WHAT?
For the first time in a long time I had a short stay at the hospital because my heart was strong enough to deal with the virus and so were my lungs. I even had bronchitis on top of all that, but apparently, according to the doctors, I was strong enough this time to be sent home!
So you see, I pray but I act on it too! I pursue health.
All that green stuff I drink all day is paying off!
I've eliminated lots of stuff from my diet, but I allow myself a moderate break during special ocassions. I also watched a video called FOOD MATTERS that was quite impressive! Doing more research on the subject I have realized that most of the stuff that we as Americans consume is nothing but poison to the body because by the time food reaches the stores it is packed with pesticides and chemicals that hurt us. Did you all know that G-d created a body that pretty much heals itself when nutrition is optimal? VITAMINS are important! SUPER IMPORTANT because our food lacks the level of nutrition that our bodies need.(I am not here to sell anything. You can buy whichever brand of vitamins you want!)
Yeshua died so that we could life and have it ABUNDANTLY! Not only am I STILL learning how to spiritually live according to HIS WORD, but I am also learning how to live according to HIS nutrition standards! The information is in the BIBLE itself and even in the food that HE created for US!
Check this out!
As far as I am concerned there is HOPE all around me! I have DECIDED to pursue LIFE and I am honoring G-d in this pursuit! Why? Because I am not being a parasite. I am seeking the knowledge and wisdom that comes from the heart of G-d! His LOVE is everywhere and this shows in the food that He created for us, but we have failed in seeking this knowledge out.
I am pursuing life!
What have YOU decided to pursue?
Monday, November 8, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
We Need Some Butt Kicking Macabees!
So there we were at Target trying to avoid all the Halloweenish stuff, when suddently we bump right into this giant inflatable Santa Claus.
Maybe I can create giant inflatable Macabees so they can clean house during the holidays...
Ugh!
Maybe I can create giant inflatable Macabees so they can clean house during the holidays...
Ugh!
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Love Fall and DISLIKE Halloween... like A LOT!
Wow.
Everything out there right now is so Halloweenish, that I don't want to take my kids out anywhere!
A couple of years ago, Sea World had fall festivals. Yes, they gave out candy and cookie kits to the kids, with the costumes and face painting and all... but this year it's just yucky!
It's a bit more Halloweenish and well... we'll be happy to return in November when all that icky stuff is gone!
Everything out there right now is so Halloweenish, that I don't want to take my kids out anywhere!
A couple of years ago, Sea World had fall festivals. Yes, they gave out candy and cookie kits to the kids, with the costumes and face painting and all... but this year it's just yucky!
It's a bit more Halloweenish and well... we'll be happy to return in November when all that icky stuff is gone!
The Task Ahead...
For a long time now G-d has been inspiring me to start a business that will help moms work from home. There are plenty of websites out there offering home based businesses, but I have yet to find one that is true to what we as mothers really need.
So I asked the L-rd for a big idea and He gave me one, and I am about to embark on this journey, simply trusting Him ALL THE WAY!
No multi level marketing... eww.. No answering services that require moms to work in a super quiet environment without interruption. That's not realistic, especially when you have little kids.
I wanted to do something that would allow moms to earn an income while doing laundry, homeschooling, changing diapers, cooking... cleaning...
and G-d took me straight to His Word.
Wow.
It was right infront of me the whole time. The secret to success is ALWAYS in His perfect design. For this revelation, I thank Him and give Him all praise and honor.
Don't get me wrong. Many career oriented women have contributed greatly to society and I am definitely glad for women who are lawyers, doctors, etc.
There are those of us, though, who are just happy being moms and who don't mind taking care of a home. In essence, tending to a home is full time work already, and it would be even better if we could earn some wages while doing what we do all day!
I won't share this idea with you guys just yet. I however request that you keep me in your prayers as I take the necessary steps to make an investment towards this endeavor.
Please pray that the L-rd continue to guide my steps in the right direction so that I can bless others through this.
My goal is to find home based employment for other moms based on this big G-d inspired idea.
Gotta get through all the paperwork, banking and licensing first.
I thank you all for your prayers in advance.
Sincerely,
Rose
So I asked the L-rd for a big idea and He gave me one, and I am about to embark on this journey, simply trusting Him ALL THE WAY!
No multi level marketing... eww.. No answering services that require moms to work in a super quiet environment without interruption. That's not realistic, especially when you have little kids.
I wanted to do something that would allow moms to earn an income while doing laundry, homeschooling, changing diapers, cooking... cleaning...
and G-d took me straight to His Word.
Wow.
It was right infront of me the whole time. The secret to success is ALWAYS in His perfect design. For this revelation, I thank Him and give Him all praise and honor.
Don't get me wrong. Many career oriented women have contributed greatly to society and I am definitely glad for women who are lawyers, doctors, etc.
There are those of us, though, who are just happy being moms and who don't mind taking care of a home. In essence, tending to a home is full time work already, and it would be even better if we could earn some wages while doing what we do all day!
I won't share this idea with you guys just yet. I however request that you keep me in your prayers as I take the necessary steps to make an investment towards this endeavor.
Please pray that the L-rd continue to guide my steps in the right direction so that I can bless others through this.
My goal is to find home based employment for other moms based on this big G-d inspired idea.
Gotta get through all the paperwork, banking and licensing first.
I thank you all for your prayers in advance.
Sincerely,
Rose
Monday, October 18, 2010
This Kid's Heart Amazes Me...
His words brought me to tears. Oh how I wish for more young people to have the same passion for G-d... the giver of life! Our KING!
I felt the presence of the L-rd so strong as I listened to his words. Amazing!
I felt the presence of the L-rd so strong as I listened to his words. Amazing!
G-d Belongs In MY City NYC
Because...
I am a LIGHT to the WORLD… (Matthew 5:14-16)
I have to make a STAND … (Ephesians 6:11-13)
I will not compromise the TRUTH…(2 Timothy 4: 3-5)
I am not ASHAMED … (Romans 1:16) I will UNITE… (1 Corinthians 1:10)
I will continue the LEGACY… (Acts 5:42)
I have been COMMISSIONED … (Matthew 28:18-20)
I am a LIGHT to the WORLD… (Matthew 5:14-16)
I have to make a STAND … (Ephesians 6:11-13)
I will not compromise the TRUTH…(2 Timothy 4: 3-5)
I am not ASHAMED … (Romans 1:16) I will UNITE… (1 Corinthians 1:10)
I will continue the LEGACY… (Acts 5:42)
I have been COMMISSIONED … (Matthew 28:18-20)
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Sunday, October 17, 2010
G-d DID SOMETHING AMAZING TODAY!
Wow. So little did I know that G-d would open my mouth to speak His word to the family members who came to visit today.
It went from one thing to another so fast and next thing I knew I was ministering full blast and the words were coming out of my mouth and the FIRE all over me was non stop.
Y'all have no idea how amazing it was, that I had just poured out my heart in a private blog entry about a specific issue I am having with my family in regards to the gifts of the Spirit... and next thing I know G-d took over and showed them...
Wow.
G-d does not cease to amaze me!!!
By the time we were done praying everyone was crying and lives were reconciled with G-d... and I am just in awe. These family members dedicated their hearts to Yeshua!!! WOW!!!
My dad just walked in to tell me that he was proud of me.
Can you believe that?
He told me that he was PROUD!
Oh I so wish I could give G-d a big hug.
I just wish He was here in front of me so that I could run into His arms and give Him the biggest hug!
Wow. Amazing!
G-d... YOU ARE REAL! REAL! AMAZING! LOVING! CARING!
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!
WOW! I LOVE YOU ABBA! I LOVE YOU MY KING!!!!!!!
It went from one thing to another so fast and next thing I knew I was ministering full blast and the words were coming out of my mouth and the FIRE all over me was non stop.
Y'all have no idea how amazing it was, that I had just poured out my heart in a private blog entry about a specific issue I am having with my family in regards to the gifts of the Spirit... and next thing I know G-d took over and showed them...
Wow.
G-d does not cease to amaze me!!!
By the time we were done praying everyone was crying and lives were reconciled with G-d... and I am just in awe. These family members dedicated their hearts to Yeshua!!! WOW!!!
My dad just walked in to tell me that he was proud of me.
Can you believe that?
He told me that he was PROUD!
Oh I so wish I could give G-d a big hug.
I just wish He was here in front of me so that I could run into His arms and give Him the biggest hug!
Wow. Amazing!
G-d... YOU ARE REAL! REAL! AMAZING! LOVING! CARING!
YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!
WOW! I LOVE YOU ABBA! I LOVE YOU MY KING!!!!!!!
SUNDAY.... Yup.
No Facebook for days... but it's because I've been busy moving in with my folks. Wow. I think I'll allow myself little break. So I'll post my blog... how about that?
Family is here from Tampa and I smell like a dog!
Seriously. I've been playing fetch with Lucky, Tails and Happy and phewwwww! They need a bath. It was fun, though. My kids always have a blast with those three little rodents.
LOL!
No. They're not rats. They're Chihuahuas. Same difference in my opinion.
Well... the familia is here now so I can't go hide to take a shower.
Yum.
Rumor has it (the source being Ricardo) that they showed up with all sorts of delicious TAPAS! Whooo hooooo!
Oh well, a little bit of Fabreze here and a little bit of Fabreze there and it should be just fine.
Oh. Claudia just walked in on me.
The look on her face when she saw me spraying Fabreze on myself?
Priceless.
Family is here from Tampa and I smell like a dog!
Seriously. I've been playing fetch with Lucky, Tails and Happy and phewwwww! They need a bath. It was fun, though. My kids always have a blast with those three little rodents.
LOL!
No. They're not rats. They're Chihuahuas. Same difference in my opinion.
Well... the familia is here now so I can't go hide to take a shower.
Yum.
Rumor has it (the source being Ricardo) that they showed up with all sorts of delicious TAPAS! Whooo hooooo!
Oh well, a little bit of Fabreze here and a little bit of Fabreze there and it should be just fine.
Oh. Claudia just walked in on me.
The look on her face when she saw me spraying Fabreze on myself?
Priceless.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
So A Guy Has This Crush On Me...
Yesterday my kids and I decided to head out to Sea World again for a little while. Food for us food is free because relatives of employees don't have to pay, so we headed out to Voyayers for dinner.
While we were there, my sister came out and told me that her boss (who apparently has had a quiet crush on me for months) wanted to meet me. According to Sally, he has seen me come in quite a few times and has wanted to introduce himself to me, but feels intimidated.
So he was in the back waiting for Sally to give him the "go" to come over and say hi.
I totally freaked out!
I got so nervous that I spilled chocolate all over my shirt.
Oh my gosh! Not funny.
So there I was, my shirt smeared in chocolate, a total mess, giving my sister (the matchmaker) the most serious shocking look ever!
Needless to say, I grabbed my purse and dashed into the bathroom! While I was in there hiding and trying to get the chocolate stain out of my shirt, I could hear them laughing. Sally was telling him how I had just spilled something on my shirt... blah... blah... blah...
My kids know me so well and I just loooooove them for that.
Claudia had already grabbed Ricardo's hand and dashed to the back exit of the restrooms where she snuck me out.
I limped out of there on turbo.
Ever seen anyone limp on turbo?
It's kind of like driving on Interstate 4 with a flat.
I had already seen this guy and although extremely handsome, he looked so young!
Seriously thought it was one of Sally's practical jokes!
He just requested me on Facebook.
He is 30 and he has pictures of himself with drinks and stuff.
Nope. Asides from the fact that I'm so deeply into my L-rd and Savior and have no desire to step outside of His perfect will, I'm simply not interested in dating.
Not my type. Too young... too worldly... so glad for turbo limping! He he he!
While we were there, my sister came out and told me that her boss (who apparently has had a quiet crush on me for months) wanted to meet me. According to Sally, he has seen me come in quite a few times and has wanted to introduce himself to me, but feels intimidated.
So he was in the back waiting for Sally to give him the "go" to come over and say hi.
I totally freaked out!
I got so nervous that I spilled chocolate all over my shirt.
Oh my gosh! Not funny.
So there I was, my shirt smeared in chocolate, a total mess, giving my sister (the matchmaker) the most serious shocking look ever!
Needless to say, I grabbed my purse and dashed into the bathroom! While I was in there hiding and trying to get the chocolate stain out of my shirt, I could hear them laughing. Sally was telling him how I had just spilled something on my shirt... blah... blah... blah...
My kids know me so well and I just loooooove them for that.
Claudia had already grabbed Ricardo's hand and dashed to the back exit of the restrooms where she snuck me out.
I limped out of there on turbo.
Ever seen anyone limp on turbo?
It's kind of like driving on Interstate 4 with a flat.
I had already seen this guy and although extremely handsome, he looked so young!
Seriously thought it was one of Sally's practical jokes!
He just requested me on Facebook.
He is 30 and he has pictures of himself with drinks and stuff.
Nope. Asides from the fact that I'm so deeply into my L-rd and Savior and have no desire to step outside of His perfect will, I'm simply not interested in dating.
Not my type. Too young... too worldly... so glad for turbo limping! He he he!
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Super Tuesday
Today is SUPER Tuesday!
Praise the L-rd.
Last night's prayer meeting was simply AMAZING! Wow. Our Enlace group has been getting better and better! Totally love the fellowship among single moms. There is so much compassion and understanding. Being there for each other is such a tremendous blessing! Can't wait to meet again next week!
Well, yesterday was leisurely wonderful, but today I must get back to the usual routine. Ahhhhhh... the joys of parenting!
Praise the L-rd.
Last night's prayer meeting was simply AMAZING! Wow. Our Enlace group has been getting better and better! Totally love the fellowship among single moms. There is so much compassion and understanding. Being there for each other is such a tremendous blessing! Can't wait to meet again next week!
Well, yesterday was leisurely wonderful, but today I must get back to the usual routine. Ahhhhhh... the joys of parenting!
Riveting! I Have No Words... WOW!
This is such a powerful and inspiring testimony! I am absolutely blessed by her words!
Ohhhhhh these tears!!!!!!!
Ohhhhhh these tears!!!!!!!
Monday, October 11, 2010
Passing Out and Wannabe Mexican Food
Last Thursday while having dinner with my children, I passed out. It was very scary to them. All I remember is waking up on the floor. At that point I could hear my daughter talking to a 911 dispatcher who was asking her questions.
As usual, the ambulance got there, took me to Osceola Regional and after spending the night, I was sent home. This was a short stay.
Scary stuff.
I feel really bad for my kids. They didn't have to see that.
All I've done since I've been home is act as normal as I possibly can. Lot's of laughs and cuddles, homeschool, going out... yes, I'm back to driving. The doctor said that I could after a couple of days. You see, my condition can cause a lot of things, but this fainting episode was triggered by lack of oxygen because although I felt it coming, I decided to ignore all the signs and continue with my meal.
Hypokalemia begins with numbness and although it was already happening, I was just not wanting to deal with it.
So when I am driving, I can feel it coming on, so I have enough time to pull over and make a quick call before it gets really bad.
This is one of the reasons why highways and interstates are not my friends.
Today my cousing Taihiti visited all the way from New York with her kids and it was a fun day. They got in the pool and then afterwards, I took my kids to Chipotle, Ben & Jerry's and Books A Million.
Had never been to Chipotle's.
Will never go to Chipotle's again.
My mouth was on fire and although I don't have an issue with spicy food, this was spicy yucky food.
This is like the Burger King of Mexican food.
Just gross. Eww.
That's all I have to say. LOL!
As usual, the ambulance got there, took me to Osceola Regional and after spending the night, I was sent home. This was a short stay.
Scary stuff.
I feel really bad for my kids. They didn't have to see that.
All I've done since I've been home is act as normal as I possibly can. Lot's of laughs and cuddles, homeschool, going out... yes, I'm back to driving. The doctor said that I could after a couple of days. You see, my condition can cause a lot of things, but this fainting episode was triggered by lack of oxygen because although I felt it coming, I decided to ignore all the signs and continue with my meal.
Hypokalemia begins with numbness and although it was already happening, I was just not wanting to deal with it.
So when I am driving, I can feel it coming on, so I have enough time to pull over and make a quick call before it gets really bad.
This is one of the reasons why highways and interstates are not my friends.
Today my cousing Taihiti visited all the way from New York with her kids and it was a fun day. They got in the pool and then afterwards, I took my kids to Chipotle, Ben & Jerry's and Books A Million.
Had never been to Chipotle's.
Will never go to Chipotle's again.
My mouth was on fire and although I don't have an issue with spicy food, this was spicy yucky food.
This is like the Burger King of Mexican food.
Just gross. Eww.
That's all I have to say. LOL!
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
How Do You Know?
Claudia: "Mom, how do you know a boy likes you?"
I had to think about that one because my experiences have not been very positive. I have not even received flowers EVER.
Finally, I shared with her my secret because, well... I don't think I need it anymore.
Me: "Claudia, when a boy takes the time to ask you what your favorite ice cream flavor is, there is a strong possibility that he likes you."
She just stared at me funny.
Claudia: "Did anyone ever ask you what your favorite ice cream flavor was?"
Me: "No"
We both started laughing soooooo hard! He he he!
She got the point, thank goodness!!!!
I had to think about that one because my experiences have not been very positive. I have not even received flowers EVER.
Finally, I shared with her my secret because, well... I don't think I need it anymore.
Me: "Claudia, when a boy takes the time to ask you what your favorite ice cream flavor is, there is a strong possibility that he likes you."
She just stared at me funny.
Claudia: "Did anyone ever ask you what your favorite ice cream flavor was?"
Me: "No"
We both started laughing soooooo hard! He he he!
She got the point, thank goodness!!!!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Mommy Time
After a loooooong phone meeting, I feel drained.
All that said, what to do?
Everything is so quiet. The kids are in bed and I am all alone here in the dark.
Maybe I'll go make myself some tea and read a good book for a while.
It's mommy time.
Yay!
All that said, what to do?
Everything is so quiet. The kids are in bed and I am all alone here in the dark.
Maybe I'll go make myself some tea and read a good book for a while.
It's mommy time.
Yay!
An Arm Around Me
This morning I woke up tired, yet excited because I like to plan things ahead for my kids that I know they will enjoy.
Vital to being a good parent is making HaShem the center of our lives.
Do I want to live? Yes.
Do I want to live for Him. Ohhh yes.
Do I want to live to give Him ALL of me? Absolutely.
Regardless of my condition... REGARDLESS, I keep going. Wait. Correction. HE KEEPS ME GOING.
Do I want to stop? Noooooooooooooooooooo.
Do I feel loved enough to keep on going?
Yes.
G-d loooooooooooooves me.
People have asked me why I don't open my heart to a possible relationship. This subject always comes up close to Holiday season because several friends assume that I feel lonely without a special someone during special occasions.
Let me make one thing clear, health situation aside (because G-d promised to heal me and I hold on to that promise each and every day).
I do at times feel lonely, and I do find myself looking at couples during service wondering what it would feel like to be married and have a husband place his arm around me. I see that in congregations a lot, and well... I just wonder. Must feel special, I'm sure.
Men who are not ashamed to do that in public must really love their wives, so I figured that someone who really loved me wouldn't mind doing the same for me.
Silly, huh!
Just a thought.
Then, there are times when I am soooooo incredibly happy with life as it is.
Spending time with my kids and making sure that they are happy, pretty much keeps me from falling into the "nostalgic zone".
Besides, I already have a special someone.
Let me just tell you how special He is to me.
When I was truly alone during the most difficult moment of my life, He loved me.
After I ran away from Him, failed Him and betrayed Him, He took me back.
When I spent countless nights crying myself to sleep during my first pregnancy, G-d sat there by my side. I did not have a husband to bring me something yummy to eat in the middle of the night when I craved it. I sat alone during prenatal classes while others had their husbands there. When I gave birth, it was a nurse who took pictures of my baby as she was being born, but Yeshua was there loving me through it all.
When I failed Him again, seeking love where I knew I would never find it and got pregnant, once more He took me back. As I struggled to raise two children all by myself, and wondered about the future... He was there to remind me that He would never abandon me.
Shortly after Ricardo was born, I got on my knees and reconciled one last time with G-d. I remember I had my baby in my arms and I was crying soooo hard that my chest was hurting, probably because my heart was breaking and G-d had to give me a new one.
You see, I felt alone... but I had never been alone. Even after I decided to follow G-d with all of my heart, things didn't get any easier. If anything they got more difficult. Why?
Well, because when you are in the world, you just keep doing what you want and don't care, but when you choose to follow Yeshua you must let go of your old self and follow through with what He requires of You.
Being the slow learner that I am, that part did not come easy to me.
My stubborness often got the best of me, and to tell you the truth, at times it still does. I have a submissive personality, but I am not very good at trusting G-d when it comes to certain aspects of my life. I've gotten much better, but I'm still a work in progress.
In eight years I have matured in the L-rd, but I don't think that I will ever stop learning and growing in Him. There is no end to that process.
So because He stood by my side through thick and thin, I have decided to be entirely His through thick and thin.
Do I want a husband?
Hmmm... I have thought about it. I won't lie. Then again, when reality sets in and my personal struggles are soothed by G-d's peace and perfect love ... I feel quite complete in the L-rd. I also believe (and I struggle with this a lot) that no one out there would love me like this. You know... with my limp. Stuff like that can get in the way of a man's pride. Men like to be seen with pretty ladies who can wear heels and walk the walk.
Because I've been the object of little cruel jokes, I know what I'm saying.
Would I make a good wife?
I don't know.
I suppose.
If being a wife involves loving and giving, giving, giving... then it's right down my alley.
Then again, my L-rd has been as giving and as loving and I have received from Him what I have never received from a man.
Only G-d has done that for me.
With that said, this holiday season I won't have a loving arm around me in service, but I will have my arms wrapped around the most beautiful children in the world!
Mine!
Feels just as good to give love as it does to receive it.
At this point I don't need the affections of a man as much as I need G-d's unconditional love.
Shalom!
Beauty and the Beast
I can't believe I'm still up at this hour preparing lesson plans for this month. I guess I don't want to fall behind during fall season. I just want to take it easy during my FAVORITE season of the year!!!
I totally looooooooooooove Fall! Love the colors. Love the weather! Love the coziness of it.
Fall is so romantic.
Anyhow, can't wait for tomorrow night. My kids and I are watching Beauty and the Beast! After all these years it's out of the vault! The last time Claudia saw it she was three and Ricardo has NEVER seen it.
We are also having "French Day"! We are going to learn about the Eiffel Tower, we are baking baguettes, and for dinner we are having some of the dishes mentioned in the song "Be Our Guest" just for fun! Can't wait!
I must share a secret.
Deep inside, I am such a BELLE...lol.. ("with a dreamy far off look, and her nose stuck in a book", avoiding all the Gastons out there and living a very provincial Poinciana life) but when it comes to rejection, I truly can relate to Beast.
I totally looooooooooooove Fall! Love the colors. Love the weather! Love the coziness of it.
Fall is so romantic.
Anyhow, can't wait for tomorrow night. My kids and I are watching Beauty and the Beast! After all these years it's out of the vault! The last time Claudia saw it she was three and Ricardo has NEVER seen it.
We are also having "French Day"! We are going to learn about the Eiffel Tower, we are baking baguettes, and for dinner we are having some of the dishes mentioned in the song "Be Our Guest" just for fun! Can't wait!
I must share a secret.
Deep inside, I am such a BELLE...lol.. ("with a dreamy far off look, and her nose stuck in a book", avoiding all the Gastons out there and living a very provincial Poinciana life) but when it comes to rejection, I truly can relate to Beast.
Monday, October 4, 2010
William Tyndale on Obedience
I happen to be a big fan of William Tyndale. This guy paid the ultimate price to ensure that G-d's word was translated into Modern English. If any of you out there are able to read your Bibles, it is mainly because of this man.
In 1528 he wrote the following regarding The Obedience of a Christian Man:
" Christ is with us until the world’s end. Let his little flock be bold therefore.
For if God be on our side, what matter maketh it who be against us, be they bishops, cardinals, popes, or whatsoever names they will?
Mark this also, if God send thee to the sea, and promise to go with thee, and to bring thee safe to land, he will raise up a tempest against thee, to prove whether thou wilt abide by his word, and that thou mayest feel thy faith, and perceive his goodness. For if it were always fair weather, and thou never brought into such jeopardy, whence his mercy only delivered thee, thy faith should be but a presumption, and thou shouldest be ever unthankful to God and merciless unto thy neighbor.
If God promise riches, the way thereto is poverty. Whom he loveth, him he chasteneth: whom he exalteth, he casteth, down: whom he saveth, he damneth first. He bringeth no man to heaven, except he send him to hell first. If he promise life, he slayeth first: when he buildeth, he casteth all down first. He is no patcher; he cannot build on another man’s foundation.
He will not work until all be past remedy, and brought unto such a case, that men may see, how that his hand, his power, his mercy, his goodness and truth, hath wrought altogether. He will let no man be partaker with him of his praise and glory. His works are wonderful, and contrary unto man’s works."
*************************************************************************************
Powerful,isn't it? One has to be as bold as he was, and as passionate about G-d's word as he was, in order to understand it with such depth. He was straight forward and to the point, and I can't help but wonder if deep in his spirit he knew the changes that would take place in our world. Wow. This is intense.
When I look at all that I have been through and then see the growth that came from it, I am simply amazed. Tyndale was right in saying that G-d cannot build on another man's foundation. He has to break us first. He has to bring us down from our pedestal and from that place where we think we are all sufficient. He let's us know how dumb we really are, before he makes us wise. He teaches us about perseverance through trials to let us know that we can overcome. He takes away our wealth at times so that we can learn to live by faith. He allows illness to strike so that we forget about vanities that don't matter and begin to heal from the inside out.
When it comes to wealth, preachers out there continue to teach about prosperity the wrong way. They keep saying that G-d wants you to be rich... but they forget one thing. You must learn first how to be poor and survive with just enough, or even less, in order for G-d to be able to trust you with more.
This makes soooooo much sense to me. Does it to you?
Most importantly, G-d wants you to give Him ALL glory. Not a bit here and there, but ALL, for without Him we merely exist.
Job did it. Abraham pulled through it and so did Joseph! Yeshua, His own son, glorified His father with His sacrifice for us and He went through the most unimaginable pain ever known to man!
We need to be as genuine as those who were willing to die for the cause of Yeshua.
How many pastors out there are willing to let G-d break their foundation so that G-d can build His in their lives? How many of us are willing to do the same?
When G-d breaks you, it's only to restore you. To make you new.
It hurts. Trust me... I know it hurts.
But I can simply tell you that it will happen as many times as it needs to happen until you finally understand that you are one with your creator and that without Him you are merely unfinished clay.
The minute you crack or decide to add something to your design that was not part of G-d's plan, you will break. Trust me.
You only have two choices.
You either stay broken, or you let Him start over... and from start to finish it will be the biggest challenge EVER, but well worth it.
What have you decided?
Seriously wished there was a time machine somewhere. I would've loved to have seen this man preaching!
Hugs and love,
Rose
In 1528 he wrote the following regarding The Obedience of a Christian Man:
" Christ is with us until the world’s end. Let his little flock be bold therefore.
For if God be on our side, what matter maketh it who be against us, be they bishops, cardinals, popes, or whatsoever names they will?
Mark this also, if God send thee to the sea, and promise to go with thee, and to bring thee safe to land, he will raise up a tempest against thee, to prove whether thou wilt abide by his word, and that thou mayest feel thy faith, and perceive his goodness. For if it were always fair weather, and thou never brought into such jeopardy, whence his mercy only delivered thee, thy faith should be but a presumption, and thou shouldest be ever unthankful to God and merciless unto thy neighbor.
If God promise riches, the way thereto is poverty. Whom he loveth, him he chasteneth: whom he exalteth, he casteth, down: whom he saveth, he damneth first. He bringeth no man to heaven, except he send him to hell first. If he promise life, he slayeth first: when he buildeth, he casteth all down first. He is no patcher; he cannot build on another man’s foundation.
He will not work until all be past remedy, and brought unto such a case, that men may see, how that his hand, his power, his mercy, his goodness and truth, hath wrought altogether. He will let no man be partaker with him of his praise and glory. His works are wonderful, and contrary unto man’s works."
*************************************************************************************
Powerful,isn't it? One has to be as bold as he was, and as passionate about G-d's word as he was, in order to understand it with such depth. He was straight forward and to the point, and I can't help but wonder if deep in his spirit he knew the changes that would take place in our world. Wow. This is intense.
When I look at all that I have been through and then see the growth that came from it, I am simply amazed. Tyndale was right in saying that G-d cannot build on another man's foundation. He has to break us first. He has to bring us down from our pedestal and from that place where we think we are all sufficient. He let's us know how dumb we really are, before he makes us wise. He teaches us about perseverance through trials to let us know that we can overcome. He takes away our wealth at times so that we can learn to live by faith. He allows illness to strike so that we forget about vanities that don't matter and begin to heal from the inside out.
When it comes to wealth, preachers out there continue to teach about prosperity the wrong way. They keep saying that G-d wants you to be rich... but they forget one thing. You must learn first how to be poor and survive with just enough, or even less, in order for G-d to be able to trust you with more.
This makes soooooo much sense to me. Does it to you?
Most importantly, G-d wants you to give Him ALL glory. Not a bit here and there, but ALL, for without Him we merely exist.
Job did it. Abraham pulled through it and so did Joseph! Yeshua, His own son, glorified His father with His sacrifice for us and He went through the most unimaginable pain ever known to man!
We need to be as genuine as those who were willing to die for the cause of Yeshua.
How many pastors out there are willing to let G-d break their foundation so that G-d can build His in their lives? How many of us are willing to do the same?
When G-d breaks you, it's only to restore you. To make you new.
It hurts. Trust me... I know it hurts.
But I can simply tell you that it will happen as many times as it needs to happen until you finally understand that you are one with your creator and that without Him you are merely unfinished clay.
The minute you crack or decide to add something to your design that was not part of G-d's plan, you will break. Trust me.
You only have two choices.
You either stay broken, or you let Him start over... and from start to finish it will be the biggest challenge EVER, but well worth it.
What have you decided?
Seriously wished there was a time machine somewhere. I would've loved to have seen this man preaching!
Hugs and love,
Rose
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Moving Back with La Familia...
Yeah... not an easy choice, but after Abuelita requested this from me, I reconsidered because frankly, I am not where I should be in terms of my health, so it was a better part of wisdom.
I'm baaaaaaaaack! Well, as of October 31st.
How can I describe life at my parent's house?
Um...how can I describe my parents? He he he!
Well... here are some videos. LOL! Ok. So I guess I can get used to this again.
My Dad...
My sisters and my Abuelita
Good times back home...
I'm baaaaaaaaack! Well, as of October 31st.
How can I describe life at my parent's house?
Um...how can I describe my parents? He he he!
Well... here are some videos. LOL! Ok. So I guess I can get used to this again.
My Dad...
My sisters and my Abuelita
Good times back home...
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Dear Friends
Dear Friends,
After being hospitalized for a week, I am extremely grateful to be home with my children. We are back to homeschooling, lots of fun moments, laughter and cuddles!!!
Wow. I missed them.
Now I am back to planning my move in November, my trip to New York in the Spring and a more permanent move out West in a year. I seriously thought that doors had closed for good, but as it turns out, G-d had other amazing plans! So glad that my heart knew this, because I felt so much peace.
Being at the hospital was a bit scary this time around. I even gave my email, Facebook, and banking passwords to two trustworthy relatives, in case something happened to me, so they could access them and handle them as I had requested.
A prank sort of ruined the whole "idea" and well... now that passwords have been changed, I learned my lesson. As believers we must guard our testimony, even when that means keeping our distance from people we love very much. One thing you never joke around is someone's trust. Little pranks take a whole new meaning when it involves damage to someone's personal testimony. Huge no-no.
All that said, no hard feelings. All forgiven.
Going back to being at home, I am busy being a mom, living for my King of Kings and looking forward to the changes. After much prayer I have decided that we are downgrading to a two bedroom condo. VERY small, but brand new in a NICER sister community that also has a lake, a marina, NATURE all around, an awesome pool and a SUPER COOL gym. I can't do much, but the doctor wants me to do controlled steady walking on a treadmill, and that gym has lots of those.
Someone this past week asked me a very delicate question.
For those of you who still do not know this, I suffer from hypokalemic periodic paralysis and I don't walk very straight. I limp.
I can probably walk 50 steps without limping (in a lot of pain) but other than that it's THUMP... THUMP...THUMP... the rest of the time. For those of you who know this about me already, I thank you for loving me as I am. For those of you who have never seen me in "action", hugs are welcomed, but no stares. LOL!
Back when I was younger I did modeling and gymnastics and life was by all means "normal" but a few years back this debilitating condition sort of took over, and now I walk kind of funny. Some days are better than others and believe it or not, I have days when I can actually jog and walk somewhat normal, but those days don't usually last long.
I encourage any of you out there to research this condition as it is rarely known and it is considered a muscular dystrophy, since they have yet to find a medication that will regress muscle damage. They are testing one recently, but I would have to travel to another state to partake of the study before it ends, and I just don't see myself going anywhere far right now. Being in the hospital this long made me realize that I can't just take off without my kids. I think that I would go literally nuts without them.
Anyways...G-d is awesome and life is good!
I am back to those moments of peace in the early morning hours when I can sit in my cuddly chair by the lamp to read His Word, pray and mediate in Him with a cup of fruity herbal tea nearby. It's as if He is there, holding me in His arms, cuddling me and loving me and wow... nothing else out there can top that. Nothing.
I am in love with my King of Kings and L-rd of L-rds and I am glad to be home.
True that He held me through it all at the hospital, but frankly, there is no place like home. You all know that.
I thank you all for your wonderful prayers and I am looking forward to fellowship at my place this week with those of you who will be coming over for dinner, prayer and praise! Can hardly wait!
To those friends who live a bit far, I PROMISE to meet you in person one day. When our friends also believe in eternal life with G-d, that promise is literally impossible to break. :o)
Much love,
Rose
After being hospitalized for a week, I am extremely grateful to be home with my children. We are back to homeschooling, lots of fun moments, laughter and cuddles!!!
Wow. I missed them.
Now I am back to planning my move in November, my trip to New York in the Spring and a more permanent move out West in a year. I seriously thought that doors had closed for good, but as it turns out, G-d had other amazing plans! So glad that my heart knew this, because I felt so much peace.
Being at the hospital was a bit scary this time around. I even gave my email, Facebook, and banking passwords to two trustworthy relatives, in case something happened to me, so they could access them and handle them as I had requested.
A prank sort of ruined the whole "idea" and well... now that passwords have been changed, I learned my lesson. As believers we must guard our testimony, even when that means keeping our distance from people we love very much. One thing you never joke around is someone's trust. Little pranks take a whole new meaning when it involves damage to someone's personal testimony. Huge no-no.
All that said, no hard feelings. All forgiven.
Going back to being at home, I am busy being a mom, living for my King of Kings and looking forward to the changes. After much prayer I have decided that we are downgrading to a two bedroom condo. VERY small, but brand new in a NICER sister community that also has a lake, a marina, NATURE all around, an awesome pool and a SUPER COOL gym. I can't do much, but the doctor wants me to do controlled steady walking on a treadmill, and that gym has lots of those.
Someone this past week asked me a very delicate question.
For those of you who still do not know this, I suffer from hypokalemic periodic paralysis and I don't walk very straight. I limp.
I can probably walk 50 steps without limping (in a lot of pain) but other than that it's THUMP... THUMP...THUMP... the rest of the time. For those of you who know this about me already, I thank you for loving me as I am. For those of you who have never seen me in "action", hugs are welcomed, but no stares. LOL!
Back when I was younger I did modeling and gymnastics and life was by all means "normal" but a few years back this debilitating condition sort of took over, and now I walk kind of funny. Some days are better than others and believe it or not, I have days when I can actually jog and walk somewhat normal, but those days don't usually last long.
I encourage any of you out there to research this condition as it is rarely known and it is considered a muscular dystrophy, since they have yet to find a medication that will regress muscle damage. They are testing one recently, but I would have to travel to another state to partake of the study before it ends, and I just don't see myself going anywhere far right now. Being in the hospital this long made me realize that I can't just take off without my kids. I think that I would go literally nuts without them.
Anyways...G-d is awesome and life is good!
I am back to those moments of peace in the early morning hours when I can sit in my cuddly chair by the lamp to read His Word, pray and mediate in Him with a cup of fruity herbal tea nearby. It's as if He is there, holding me in His arms, cuddling me and loving me and wow... nothing else out there can top that. Nothing.
I am in love with my King of Kings and L-rd of L-rds and I am glad to be home.
True that He held me through it all at the hospital, but frankly, there is no place like home. You all know that.
I thank you all for your wonderful prayers and I am looking forward to fellowship at my place this week with those of you who will be coming over for dinner, prayer and praise! Can hardly wait!
To those friends who live a bit far, I PROMISE to meet you in person one day. When our friends also believe in eternal life with G-d, that promise is literally impossible to break. :o)
Much love,
Rose
Friday, September 24, 2010
Gotta Have the Backbone!
My friend Leslie posted this to her Facebook this morning and I thought it was great!
EVANGELIFISH = Christian who has no backbone to obey the KNOWN will of God, but wants to KNOW the HIDDEN will of God.
LOL! Doing G-d's perfect will takes guts. I say this because it is never easy to give up our personal desires to follow His in a world that pulls us in all different directions.
As I pondered on this sudden hospital stay and on how it literally ruined my Sukkot, G-d reminded me with much love that had this not happened, they wouldn't have found that splenic arterial aneurysm. G-d saved my life.
Bam! In my face.
We are so quick to complain but forget to look at the greater picture.
G-d knows that my children need me and that I still have lots to do here on earth before His return, so he took care of me once more.
Sure! I threw a fit because with my health it always seems to be one thing after another. Still one more CT to go, and you know... if something else shows up, I promise to not complain. G-d already used this situation so that I could minister to a nurse... and if she was the only reason I am going through all of this, then it's been worth it.
G-d, I am all Yours! You know what You are doing and I trust You!
Chag Sameach my King!!!
EVANGELIFISH = Christian who has no backbone to obey the KNOWN will of God, but wants to KNOW the HIDDEN will of God.
LOL! Doing G-d's perfect will takes guts. I say this because it is never easy to give up our personal desires to follow His in a world that pulls us in all different directions.
As I pondered on this sudden hospital stay and on how it literally ruined my Sukkot, G-d reminded me with much love that had this not happened, they wouldn't have found that splenic arterial aneurysm. G-d saved my life.
Bam! In my face.
We are so quick to complain but forget to look at the greater picture.
G-d knows that my children need me and that I still have lots to do here on earth before His return, so he took care of me once more.
Sure! I threw a fit because with my health it always seems to be one thing after another. Still one more CT to go, and you know... if something else shows up, I promise to not complain. G-d already used this situation so that I could minister to a nurse... and if she was the only reason I am going through all of this, then it's been worth it.
G-d, I am all Yours! You know what You are doing and I trust You!
Chag Sameach my King!!!
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Yom Kippur ...
Yom Kippur is over.
The Potter... the clay... a fresh start.
We prayed and listened to G-d's Word all day. I had moments of introspection that served me well, and after all that, was simply drained.
Peaceful, but drained.
I sincerely felt as though I had fought the biggest spiritual battle of my life. Fasting is not just for forgiveness of sins, but also for spiritual war, and this one was incredibly immense.
Here is what I think with all of my heart.
Yom Kippur is a high holiday, but it frankly means nothing to G-d if it is simply something that one does as a yearly ritual. (I do understand that the High Holy Days mark the seasons... and that is important, but I am talking about the deeper meaning of repentance)
Atonement.
Aren't we supposed to ask for atonement EVERY SINGLE day of the year?
As I read the first chapter in Isaiah, I was surprised to find out that G-d himself made it very clear to His people that the ordained holidays meant nothing to Him if they were not meant from the heart.
Isaiah 1 verses 14 through 20 read:
11 "The multitude of your sacrifices—
what are they to me?" says the LORD.
"I have more than enough of burnt offerings,
of rams and the fat of fattened animals;
I have no pleasure
in the blood of bulls and lambs and goats.
12 When you come to appear before me,
who has asked this of you,
this trampling of my courts?
13 Stop bringing meaningless offerings!
Your incense is detestable to me.
New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations—
I cannot bear your evil assemblies.
14 Your New Moon festivals and your appointed feasts
my soul hates.
They have become a burden to me;
I am weary of bearing them.
15 When you spread out your hands in prayer,
I will hide my eyes from you;
even if you offer many prayers,
I will not listen.
Your hands are full of blood;
16 wash and make yourselves clean.
Take your evil deeds
out of my sight!
Stop doing wrong,
17 learn to do right!
Seek justice,
encourage the oppressed. [a]
Defend the cause of the fatherless,
plead the case of the widow.
18 "Come now, let us reason together,"
says the LORD.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.
19 If you are willing and obedient,
you will eat the best from the land;
20 but if you resist and rebel,
you will be devoured by the sword."
For the mouth of the LORD has spoken.
What difference does it make if we go on doing whatever we want the very next day?
He wants us to STOP doing wrong. He wants us to be WILLING and OBEDIENT.
We are dumb if we think as Jews that we can get away with sin just because we make atonement once a year... or as Messianic Jews because Yeshua made atonement for us.
True, He has cleansed us. Yet, here is the thing...
Let me share my heart, and I just KNOW that I am going to get soooo incredibly grilled for what I am about to say, but it's true because I have been there and done it myself.
Being a Jew can be a huge burden at times. Having to follow certain rituals makes me wonder if we REALLY get it, or if this is just something that we do because we are simply Jews.
Can I please be more honest?
Do you all want to know when I finally understood this?
This year.
Does that surprise any of you out there?
Please don't be shocked.
I recall walking into synagogue with my children in years past and praying with everyone else there... Messianics, of course. Praying for forgiveness. Praying for Israel. Praying and praying and praying...
This year I did not attend synagogue.
This year I stayed home with my kids.
We all fasted and prayed and cried... and then I realized right in the middle of it that Yeshua's blood had already cleansed me and that it did so EVERY SINGLE DAY... so why the huge fuss over it ONCE a year?
You see now why you are all going to grill me for this?
The more I prayed and cried before the presence of G-d, the more I understood Yeshua's struggle to let people know that religion is NO LONGER required, but that the simple acceptance of HIS sacrifice for us suffices.
YES, we observe the day out of obedience to HaShem, but do we REALLY observe His commandments? Do we really repent? Do we really make it a point to start brand new, or do we go back to the same old stuff a few minutes after we end our fast?
My heart has known for years that with our L-rd it is not about a religion but about a relationship.
This year, however, G-d made it crystal clear that the High Holy Days as we call them mean absolutely nothing if they are simply a once a year guilt trip.
Keeping our salvation is EVERY DAY work.
Every day that we struggle with sin we either wash ourselves with the blood of Yeshua as we repent, or we grab the mallet and nail Him back on the cross with our actions.
I wanted to be sincere.
I wanted to mean it.
No more guilt trips.
HaShem wants true repentance, and I sure had no choice but to realize that this is more serious than it looks.
We are running out of time here.
We seriously are.
My son is eight years old, but he took to that floor and did not lift up his head until he cried all he had to cry before the L-rd. As much as I wanted to pick him up and hold him, I knew that I had to leave Him alone.
He is just a child, but his spirit, his heart and his mind understood true repentance at his level.
Nobody else was there.
Just us three, worshipping our King.
When we can get THISCLOSE to Him... in such intimacy, then He opens our hearts to a better understanding of what we are doing and why we are supposed to do it.
It took me this long, but now I get it.
Next Yom Kippur I hope to be with Him... but if I am not, then I hope to be THISCLOSE to His heart and for Him to be THISCLOSE to my heart once more.
That simple.
The Potter... the clay... a fresh start.
We prayed and listened to G-d's Word all day. I had moments of introspection that served me well, and after all that, was simply drained.
Peaceful, but drained.
I sincerely felt as though I had fought the biggest spiritual battle of my life. Fasting is not just for forgiveness of sins, but also for spiritual war, and this one was incredibly immense.
Here is what I think with all of my heart.
Yom Kippur is a high holiday, but it frankly means nothing to G-d if it is simply something that one does as a yearly ritual. (I do understand that the High Holy Days mark the seasons... and that is important, but I am talking about the deeper meaning of repentance)
Atonement.
Aren't we supposed to ask for atonement EVERY SINGLE day of the year?
As I read the first chapter in Isaiah, I was surprised to find out that G-d himself made it very clear to His people that the ordained holidays meant nothing to Him if they were not meant from the heart.
Isaiah 1 verses 14 through 20 read:
11 "The multitude of your sacrifices—
what are they to me?" says the LORD.
"I have more than enough of burnt offerings,
of rams and the fat of fattened animals;
I have no pleasure
in the blood of bulls and lambs and goats.
12 When you come to appear before me,
who has asked this of you,
this trampling of my courts?
13 Stop bringing meaningless offerings!
Your incense is detestable to me.
New Moons, Sabbaths and convocations—
I cannot bear your evil assemblies.
14 Your New Moon festivals and your appointed feasts
my soul hates.
They have become a burden to me;
I am weary of bearing them.
15 When you spread out your hands in prayer,
I will hide my eyes from you;
even if you offer many prayers,
I will not listen.
Your hands are full of blood;
16 wash and make yourselves clean.
Take your evil deeds
out of my sight!
Stop doing wrong,
17 learn to do right!
Seek justice,
encourage the oppressed. [a]
Defend the cause of the fatherless,
plead the case of the widow.
18 "Come now, let us reason together,"
says the LORD.
"Though your sins are like scarlet,
they shall be as white as snow;
though they are red as crimson,
they shall be like wool.
19 If you are willing and obedient,
you will eat the best from the land;
20 but if you resist and rebel,
you will be devoured by the sword."
For the mouth of the LORD has spoken.
What difference does it make if we go on doing whatever we want the very next day?
He wants us to STOP doing wrong. He wants us to be WILLING and OBEDIENT.
We are dumb if we think as Jews that we can get away with sin just because we make atonement once a year... or as Messianic Jews because Yeshua made atonement for us.
True, He has cleansed us. Yet, here is the thing...
Let me share my heart, and I just KNOW that I am going to get soooo incredibly grilled for what I am about to say, but it's true because I have been there and done it myself.
Being a Jew can be a huge burden at times. Having to follow certain rituals makes me wonder if we REALLY get it, or if this is just something that we do because we are simply Jews.
Can I please be more honest?
Do you all want to know when I finally understood this?
This year.
Does that surprise any of you out there?
Please don't be shocked.
I recall walking into synagogue with my children in years past and praying with everyone else there... Messianics, of course. Praying for forgiveness. Praying for Israel. Praying and praying and praying...
This year I did not attend synagogue.
This year I stayed home with my kids.
We all fasted and prayed and cried... and then I realized right in the middle of it that Yeshua's blood had already cleansed me and that it did so EVERY SINGLE DAY... so why the huge fuss over it ONCE a year?
You see now why you are all going to grill me for this?
The more I prayed and cried before the presence of G-d, the more I understood Yeshua's struggle to let people know that religion is NO LONGER required, but that the simple acceptance of HIS sacrifice for us suffices.
YES, we observe the day out of obedience to HaShem, but do we REALLY observe His commandments? Do we really repent? Do we really make it a point to start brand new, or do we go back to the same old stuff a few minutes after we end our fast?
My heart has known for years that with our L-rd it is not about a religion but about a relationship.
This year, however, G-d made it crystal clear that the High Holy Days as we call them mean absolutely nothing if they are simply a once a year guilt trip.
Keeping our salvation is EVERY DAY work.
Every day that we struggle with sin we either wash ourselves with the blood of Yeshua as we repent, or we grab the mallet and nail Him back on the cross with our actions.
I wanted to be sincere.
I wanted to mean it.
No more guilt trips.
HaShem wants true repentance, and I sure had no choice but to realize that this is more serious than it looks.
We are running out of time here.
We seriously are.
My son is eight years old, but he took to that floor and did not lift up his head until he cried all he had to cry before the L-rd. As much as I wanted to pick him up and hold him, I knew that I had to leave Him alone.
He is just a child, but his spirit, his heart and his mind understood true repentance at his level.
Nobody else was there.
Just us three, worshipping our King.
When we can get THISCLOSE to Him... in such intimacy, then He opens our hearts to a better understanding of what we are doing and why we are supposed to do it.
It took me this long, but now I get it.
Next Yom Kippur I hope to be with Him... but if I am not, then I hope to be THISCLOSE to His heart and for Him to be THISCLOSE to my heart once more.
That simple.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
This Has Blown Me Away!
Please take a look at this video. I decided to investigate these tetrads myself because I don't like to take other people's word for it... and wow... I am blown away!
Although we do not know the DAY or the HOUR... G-d encourages us to watch out for the "seasons"!
This is the entire Torah Study on this subject. Take out your notebooks and start taking notes people! This stuff is GOOD!
Although we do not know the DAY or the HOUR... G-d encourages us to watch out for the "seasons"!
This is the entire Torah Study on this subject. Take out your notebooks and start taking notes people! This stuff is GOOD!
Friday, September 10, 2010
My Personal Life Lessons for Rosh HaShanah
It's been a wonderful last few days. My home has been filled with the presence of G-d because Claudia, Ricardo and I have taken the time to delight ourselves in Him COMPLETELY.
Ricardo even felt from the L-rd that he should get oil and have us all anointed before HaShem's presence. It was very special and wow... words cannot describe.
My lessons for this year have been many, but one last thing that I learned several nights ago, right before Rosh HaShanah, was not only to let the events of the past few weeks go but to also recognize that we must stop seeking friendships that don't benefit us in the least.
When I was a model back in the 90's everyone wanted a piece of me. (Sounds so weird, LOL... but those who knew me back then know that I am not kidding) It was a horrible truth I had difficulty with back in those days. My parents were constantly on guard and my father would go with me to EVERY SINGLE casting and EVERY SINGLE shoot. It was a very stressful and odd stage in my life and it was even more stressful to have my dad breathing down my neck and down the director's neck. Most of those t.v. producers were from Argentina and they had temper issues... and when you mix that with a hard headed Jewish dad, it's deadly stuff.
The vulchers would scatter whenever they saw my dad. He knew that this type of environment was dangerous for me, and later on it almost proved fatal. If I survived the most hurtful event of my life, was because G-d must have had a plan. That simple. G-d kept me alive.
I was more comfortable doing radio since I had family in the entertainment business and I had "easy" access to that sort of thing, but then after the incident I retreated and became this horribly shy hermit. Tons of friends, but none that I would ever allow too close to my heart. Those same friends vanished when I vanished from "the scene".
Bit by bit, I have allowed G-d to take care of that. At times I wonder if I have had any progress, because I have chickened out of so many opportunities. If someone is your true friend, they will never care about your physical appearance or about your illnesses or handicaps.
When I had beauty and popularity people couldn't get past that in order to love me for my heart. Now that beauty is somewhat gone, people can't get past THAT in order to love me for my heart.
Ironic, isn't it? This shallow world does not have one single person out there who doesn't seek out another in true friendship unless they are able to get something in return. Then, once they have what they wanted, you are once more invisible.
True friendship. Does that even exist anymore?
My grandmother has a box of cards that she mails out every single year. She taught me as a child that a true friend never forgets birthdays and that a true friend should never stop seeking the opportunity to give without expecting anything in return. For years I carried on with her ways and made this my own personal mission, never forgetting a birthday and making sure that I would always find ways to give joy to someone, even in simple things... a book, a card, a movie gift certificate or a simple phone call.
Throughout the years, I have sifted out the people who like to take from me and those who like to receive from me. Those who like to receive from me already know that I give expecting nothing back. Those who take, do so afraid and paranoid that they have to respond to me a certain way. In other words, they only call when they need a favor and once they get what they came looking for they scram. Wow. What has this world done to people for them to become so increasingly paranoid? Where is G-d's love in these people who proclaim to know G-d, but then treat others like they themselves wouldn't want to be treated?
I can count my true friends with one hand. One. Everyone else has placed me and countless others in their "Who Cares" category.
I don't necessarily like Rick Warren because although his teachings sound good, my spirit feels just a bit uncomfortable with who he has become. Then again, there are a few quotes here and there that are right on the money. One quote of his that I totally agree with is this one:
"Never let flatterers into your inner circle. They are users, not friends"
So here is my advice to all of you out there...
When someone who never usually reaches out to find out how you are doing makes a sudden attempt to act as a friend and then asks you for something... do what you can to help, but don't expect them to call until they need that same favor the following year. As a matter of fact, end your conversation with "Nice for you to take the initiative to call. Glad everyone is ok. Here is your favor and don't worry... I'll still be around next year when you need this favor again."
LOL!
Yup. Sigh... true friendship. Who has the time, right?
Here is my personal statement and shout out to those creepy people out there who seriously need a reality check:
"Welcome to Planet Who Cares... where you even find people who are paranoid when you ask them if they want something for their birthday. Chillax people! Birthdays were meant for cards and little gifts. If those are way too insignificant and you only get excited about free admissions to an amusement park, then my most sincere apology."
I am simply being a REAL friend. Not a hypocrite. Not a nuisance.Then again, if a person doesn't care for another person's friendship... be honest and speak up. Tell them. Say it with words. Sending mixed signals is simply wrong. I don't have to befriend everyone I meet, but I don't have to pretend to be their friend either! It makes one wonder if people who do that somehow share with others that one is nothing other than their little personal joke. I've seen people do this all the time and it is very sad.
If you have forgotten what real friends are like, perhaps it would be a good idea to take a serious look within yourselves to achieve greater perspective. Perhaps the reason you can't recognize true friendship when you see it is because you are oblivious to it, since it is obvious that you can't receive what you yourself are unable to give."
Right now, though, I am relaxing in the L-rd and literally inhaling the book Finding Favor with the King, by Tommy Tenney. This is my second round through it and I just totally love it!
This last year was one of feast and famine, and through it all G-d loved my family. No regrets. None.
A better part of wisdom is to take those things which have hurt you and learn from them. How can you regret a good lesson learned? You can't. My hope is to grow better and not bitter from the events of the past year. It's been a tough one... wow!
Another lesson? People are not always who they appear to be and often times this ends up affecting our level of trust. How you deal with it, however, will either make you stronger or make the wound much deeper.
Forgiveness is a choice and one must first learn to ask for forgiveness and take that initiative before the presence of G-d, regardless of who is wrong and who isn't. None of us are righteous. We all come short, but G-d has enough mercies each morning for each and every one.
My final Rosh HaShanah lesson? Good boundaries are always good. Bad boundaries keep you isolated and lonely.
Gotta make sure I establish the good boundaries. The ones that allow me to say what I need to say when I need to say it, after asking G-d for the right attitude and words.
The Chinese Bamboo takes five years to sprout. For five years you see nothing. If you stop watering it during those five years, it dies, but if you carefully water and fertilize it every single year for the entire five years, it suddenly shoots up and in less than six weeks it grows up to 90 feet!!! Some of us are the same way.
We don't see our growth at times, even though we know that G-d is watering our faith and sending knowledge our way, which we slowly absorb. Deep in our hearts, all these roots are growing and growing and preparing us to withstand the amazing outward growth that is to take place in due time. We don't see it, but it's there. It's coming. We may not see the light right now, but when we finally shoot up to the sky and G-d's purpose for our lives is fulfilled, we will then be able to see from up there EVERYTHING that we could not quite grasp from down below.
I am such a bamboo, but my roots are growing and I am still alive. G-d won't let me die.
One day whether in life or in death I too will shoot up to the heavens!
L'Shanah Tovah Tikatevu to all!
Ricardo even felt from the L-rd that he should get oil and have us all anointed before HaShem's presence. It was very special and wow... words cannot describe.
My lessons for this year have been many, but one last thing that I learned several nights ago, right before Rosh HaShanah, was not only to let the events of the past few weeks go but to also recognize that we must stop seeking friendships that don't benefit us in the least.
When I was a model back in the 90's everyone wanted a piece of me. (Sounds so weird, LOL... but those who knew me back then know that I am not kidding) It was a horrible truth I had difficulty with back in those days. My parents were constantly on guard and my father would go with me to EVERY SINGLE casting and EVERY SINGLE shoot. It was a very stressful and odd stage in my life and it was even more stressful to have my dad breathing down my neck and down the director's neck. Most of those t.v. producers were from Argentina and they had temper issues... and when you mix that with a hard headed Jewish dad, it's deadly stuff.
The vulchers would scatter whenever they saw my dad. He knew that this type of environment was dangerous for me, and later on it almost proved fatal. If I survived the most hurtful event of my life, was because G-d must have had a plan. That simple. G-d kept me alive.
I was more comfortable doing radio since I had family in the entertainment business and I had "easy" access to that sort of thing, but then after the incident I retreated and became this horribly shy hermit. Tons of friends, but none that I would ever allow too close to my heart. Those same friends vanished when I vanished from "the scene".
Bit by bit, I have allowed G-d to take care of that. At times I wonder if I have had any progress, because I have chickened out of so many opportunities. If someone is your true friend, they will never care about your physical appearance or about your illnesses or handicaps.
When I had beauty and popularity people couldn't get past that in order to love me for my heart. Now that beauty is somewhat gone, people can't get past THAT in order to love me for my heart.
Ironic, isn't it? This shallow world does not have one single person out there who doesn't seek out another in true friendship unless they are able to get something in return. Then, once they have what they wanted, you are once more invisible.
True friendship. Does that even exist anymore?
My grandmother has a box of cards that she mails out every single year. She taught me as a child that a true friend never forgets birthdays and that a true friend should never stop seeking the opportunity to give without expecting anything in return. For years I carried on with her ways and made this my own personal mission, never forgetting a birthday and making sure that I would always find ways to give joy to someone, even in simple things... a book, a card, a movie gift certificate or a simple phone call.
Throughout the years, I have sifted out the people who like to take from me and those who like to receive from me. Those who like to receive from me already know that I give expecting nothing back. Those who take, do so afraid and paranoid that they have to respond to me a certain way. In other words, they only call when they need a favor and once they get what they came looking for they scram. Wow. What has this world done to people for them to become so increasingly paranoid? Where is G-d's love in these people who proclaim to know G-d, but then treat others like they themselves wouldn't want to be treated?
I can count my true friends with one hand. One. Everyone else has placed me and countless others in their "Who Cares" category.
I don't necessarily like Rick Warren because although his teachings sound good, my spirit feels just a bit uncomfortable with who he has become. Then again, there are a few quotes here and there that are right on the money. One quote of his that I totally agree with is this one:
"Never let flatterers into your inner circle. They are users, not friends"
So here is my advice to all of you out there...
When someone who never usually reaches out to find out how you are doing makes a sudden attempt to act as a friend and then asks you for something... do what you can to help, but don't expect them to call until they need that same favor the following year. As a matter of fact, end your conversation with "Nice for you to take the initiative to call. Glad everyone is ok. Here is your favor and don't worry... I'll still be around next year when you need this favor again."
LOL!
Yup. Sigh... true friendship. Who has the time, right?
Here is my personal statement and shout out to those creepy people out there who seriously need a reality check:
"Welcome to Planet Who Cares... where you even find people who are paranoid when you ask them if they want something for their birthday. Chillax people! Birthdays were meant for cards and little gifts. If those are way too insignificant and you only get excited about free admissions to an amusement park, then my most sincere apology."
I am simply being a REAL friend. Not a hypocrite. Not a nuisance.Then again, if a person doesn't care for another person's friendship... be honest and speak up. Tell them. Say it with words. Sending mixed signals is simply wrong. I don't have to befriend everyone I meet, but I don't have to pretend to be their friend either! It makes one wonder if people who do that somehow share with others that one is nothing other than their little personal joke. I've seen people do this all the time and it is very sad.
If you have forgotten what real friends are like, perhaps it would be a good idea to take a serious look within yourselves to achieve greater perspective. Perhaps the reason you can't recognize true friendship when you see it is because you are oblivious to it, since it is obvious that you can't receive what you yourself are unable to give."
Right now, though, I am relaxing in the L-rd and literally inhaling the book Finding Favor with the King, by Tommy Tenney. This is my second round through it and I just totally love it!
This last year was one of feast and famine, and through it all G-d loved my family. No regrets. None.
A better part of wisdom is to take those things which have hurt you and learn from them. How can you regret a good lesson learned? You can't. My hope is to grow better and not bitter from the events of the past year. It's been a tough one... wow!
Another lesson? People are not always who they appear to be and often times this ends up affecting our level of trust. How you deal with it, however, will either make you stronger or make the wound much deeper.
Forgiveness is a choice and one must first learn to ask for forgiveness and take that initiative before the presence of G-d, regardless of who is wrong and who isn't. None of us are righteous. We all come short, but G-d has enough mercies each morning for each and every one.
My final Rosh HaShanah lesson? Good boundaries are always good. Bad boundaries keep you isolated and lonely.
Gotta make sure I establish the good boundaries. The ones that allow me to say what I need to say when I need to say it, after asking G-d for the right attitude and words.
The Chinese Bamboo takes five years to sprout. For five years you see nothing. If you stop watering it during those five years, it dies, but if you carefully water and fertilize it every single year for the entire five years, it suddenly shoots up and in less than six weeks it grows up to 90 feet!!! Some of us are the same way.
We don't see our growth at times, even though we know that G-d is watering our faith and sending knowledge our way, which we slowly absorb. Deep in our hearts, all these roots are growing and growing and preparing us to withstand the amazing outward growth that is to take place in due time. We don't see it, but it's there. It's coming. We may not see the light right now, but when we finally shoot up to the sky and G-d's purpose for our lives is fulfilled, we will then be able to see from up there EVERYTHING that we could not quite grasp from down below.
I am such a bamboo, but my roots are growing and I am still alive. G-d won't let me die.
One day whether in life or in death I too will shoot up to the heavens!
L'Shanah Tovah Tikatevu to all!
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